The magic and the will comes from the God within. Always with you and always waiting to grant wishes. It takes your faith in it and your action to roll with the changes offered to you and you to change direction of your course when it’s off. The key to your freedom and to things working out lie within you. Do not doubt the life you came in with or the family or what your roots are. Do not wonder why things are “hard” or why they are the way they are. It’s for a reason, it’s something your God established before your life for you. The tests are how well you can take something painful and irritating and make it into something beautiful. Don’t let the world tame you. Be the free spirit you are. Avoid the dramatics in regards to it. You are who you are and that’s all there is to it. Walk away from the energies that make you feel lower than your peace state. Everything that’s led you up to your current point is for you and anything else that may or may not happen in the future is going to be for you. Have the faith it’s going to all work out.
Know that the truth comes out eventually and if you have been “wasting” your time it’s going to end up for a reason anyways along with learned lessons. You will feel justified if you know that you are doing right by yourself and trusting the universe to assist you in the process of reaching your goals. Stop arguing and walk away from anything that’s not benefiting or reciprocating you. Doesn’t matter who or what it is, but especially if it’s someone who hides who they truly are. Don’t worry, be happy, the bad things will leave and create space for better things later on. Sometimes things aren’t as bad as they seem in our head, and truly it’s just not right for us but we create reasons to put the blame on others rather than being honest about our own dissatisfaction with how things are. We want to be seen as good and we put our efforts in so we don’t want to give up, but sometimes things change or you realize new found desires. That doesn’t make you a bad person. Maybe you realize you’re better when on your own.
Either way it’s not wrong to speak your truth. You’re strong and capable despite what others may view you as, commit to yourself and your happiness for once in life. Do you and this is what’s going to quickly move things forward in the way you want. Confidence is key. Someone may try to sabotage your things, it’s up to you if you will let that sway you or not. It doesn’t matter what others think, as long as you know the truth that’s all that matters. Your work in regards to helping others is realistic and a fresh perspective for them. It’s okay if you don’t charge, that’s not why you’re doing it. On your journey you have found that seeking self satisfying things often just leads you to having to serve people more to keep up. You may have a conversation about how to deal with things at home in a relationship to make it better and healthier. You know if they don’t get the message it’s not up to you to make them understand it and implement it and you will be able to deal with it accordingly then. It’s not that you are up to good or bad simply tired of being disappointed, despite it maybe making you sad currently to do what you need to do about it. Doing a “favor” isn’t helping if they hold it over your head, threaten to take it away, and manipulate situations with that as collateral. Can they help you when you are low on money? Can they commit to you? Can they be loving in life and in death?
Maybe the person you are looking for is actually within you, and not someone else. Maybe the person you are to commit life long to is your God, who never leaves you hopeless. All choices and decisions reflect you and the God you serve. Past, present, future, you could always count on you and your higher self being there. Even when you had no where to go, you know you could go within and feel at peace. When you let go of what was you allow what can be. Be accepting, be trusting, be in balance of your emotions, and you have no worries. Make them work for your attention and energy. Make them be worth it. Stay high and don’t lower yourself. Make them raise to meet you. It’s not cold you just are done hiding your worth and value. You’re quickly moving away from people who can’t appreciate what you bring. You’re pretty picture perfect, so sometimes the only thing people can do to bring you down is project their tainted thoughts onto you. Stop caring. Stick to your guns. You don’t need anyone but yourself. Everything else is extra. If it’s not helping you it’s draining you. Walk from what’s not serving you. It’s okay to feel how you do, but find the meaning behind it all underneath the emotion. Grow from that lesson. Understand there’s a reason for it. Forget about needing to make sense of things. Just take what you can from it and let the rest go. Then let go even more. Then find a way to see it with compassion.
The new “you” you would like to be more gentle with others.
It’s not boring to take care of yourself and those closest to you. Your base beliefs may need evaluated.
Need to fulfill your own wishes and fix insecurities. need to make confidence a part of self. feeling bad about not having sex together, a friendship with someone needs to end. Let go of concerns about what others think. Stop holding onto old ways of living, being, behaving from others, they are holding you back. do not worry about if they are embarassed or angry, they are irrelevant. let it go. let them go.
Stop relying on others. Be strong and be selfless to your higher self (if you can’t claim being “selfish”)
You know how to be savvy and patient to get what you want, using all resources to your benefit in acquiring what you want.
Stop caring about what others think about how you go about your life and the way you get things you need and want. You are a person of good judgement and moral character, you do what you need to do to take care of yourself and those closest to you.
Don’t harm yourself to please others. You don’t have to be obedient to people who you know aren’t good to you or doing what they need to do in return for your efforts.
Trying to get out of negative cycles and transition into a different state to escape it.
The worst that can happen if found out doesn’t even matter, because those people are not going to get you where you need to be, YOU ARE.
Done with all respect for her, the children, and her friends and family.
This is what intuitively came to me through channeled messages and use of divination through prayer entry with God. I don’t know the accuracy of the messages, but I feel inclined to share.
“i want everyone to know i wasn’t happy but i did what i could. i was trying.
crying. why would you do this to me or our kids
really we hope they all learn a lesson about what family really means and what people try to make it seem. what marriage really is and what it just seemed like. i never thought he would do something like this. things have been bad but never this bad. the man who saved me and protected us turning on us is not what i imagined us doing together with our life and future.
why was she in our house. why couldnt you just keep her out. why couldnt you just leave if you were not happy. why couldnt you just be honest with me once. i knew something was wrong and i waitied too late. tell nicole that she will always be my best friend and my hero. i know she did her best and im proud of her for standing up to chris for us. im glad to all who knew i was not that wife and not that mother. look up more symbolism of the names and number and how he hurt us and buried us. these are clues to a bigger organization that conspired this and started it all. also thrive has no benefits and if i had been more concerned about working honestly instead of just making sales then maybe i would’ve not missed the signs that were warning me to stop and evaluate things in my relationship with him. I was just trying to get money incase he dipped on us cause I just knew something was wrong.
Don’t let anyone, even the person you love, stifle or smother your wants and needs of living a happily fulfilled life. If something tells you something is really wrong, do not ignore it. it was the death of me and my children. If someone is being distant with you and rejecting you, especially in bed, they are hiding something from you and it can be dentrimental. Make sure also your self worth is not lacking. It prevents you from falling for the wrong people and prevents them from being able to pull one over on you. Also if you are insecure or feel you don’t deserve something you will put off that energy and attract what you don’t want to you. Practice being unaffected by the negative energy around you. Your soul approves of you at all times, even if your human body doesn’t. Things can’t run smoothly or easier if you are doing them seperate of someone else in a partnership. Two heads are better than one. Road in a relationship means people meet half way. Not one always going to the other. Don’t let yourself get so down that others can easily take advantage of you. Some things are not meant to be held onto. Don’t trust people who don’t open up to you. ” – from who I believe to be Shanann herself.
Shanann was too confident and happy to lower herself to what Chris wanted from her. He was too immature to let her go and cheated with someone who was willing to do the things Shanann would not. Chris was anxious all the time and felt less of a man because she would not submit to him and his desires. He wanted her to abort or miscarry and get a divorce, but knew that she wouldn’t do it at the point he made the decision in his mind and he was worried about child support and alimony. Chris only acted as if Nickole had what he wanted in a relationship, the truth was he never wanted one and the same thing or something similiar would’ve happened to her when he was bored of her too. He has no remorse and no will to change his ways. It turns out his plan wasn’t as good as he thought. He let her go to North Carolina under the presumption that they would work it out in the end, but he was already celebrating and starting his new life without her, even spending money on someone else and taking money away from her and the children. He acted fine and content with his life but no one could have known how much of a manipulator he was. He seemed happy in his life and he did things when Shanann would get all up in her feelings and thought his storming out or anger would be justified because of her behavior. Then he would go cheat and she would not be able to say anything because they fought so that’s why he must have left the house. When Chris said he wanted a divorce, she said she would be moving and if he didn’t give her everything she wanted he couldn’t talk to them or see them. He thought he was in the right to take power into his own hands with the execution of the ending. She didn’t want to fight, she just wanted to go to sleep. She didn’t really want to divorce, she wanted things to slow down so they could figure it out. He didn’t want the drama, he wanted to just make himself happy. The truth was it was everything he wanted but he couldn’t get a grip on his feelings with Shanann. He felt he was not good enough of a man for her and his kids, a loser, a deviant controlling tyrant. He wanted to be fair, but lust got in the way and then when Nickole spoke of the success they would have once they were together enamored him. Being emotionally immature was his downfall, as Nickole was an even bigger manipulator than he was. He was burdened between having to hurt the family or lose Nickole. He didn’t want to make the decision so soon. Nickole got in his head about how Shanann is just trying to keep him stuck in life and will never truly fulfill him or give him what he wants long term. She made him choose between a happy new beginning with her or a long miserable marriage without her on the side. He was anxious over the issue. He was not happy with how insecure Nickole was acting by putting him in this position, but he really liked the things she did for him in bed and was not willing to give it up. He wished that he said it sooner that he lost feelings for Shanann before it got to this point but now that the threat was on the table he couldn’t be strong enough to face Shanann and deal with the financial sacrifices it would take to make it all work out the right way. He never saw himself able to get out of the debt they already were in, so it didn’t matter anyways to him at that point.
You can’t give someone else the power over how you see yourself, feel yourself, or your prosperity, peace, and abundance. If you are not in control of your emotions and things don’t seem fair, ask yourself is this too much of a burden on you? Are your feelings and efforts being reciprocated? Are you happy and feel like you’re winning in life, or do you feel like it’s a failure and a drain? Ask God to deliver you from this energy and to make things how they ought to be. Be happy on your own, don’t be codependent on someone else and expect them to be your rock and savior. You will be disappointed. Do what makes you happy, if that doesn’t make someone else happy tell them they need to come correct or you need to move on. If you pull back and see that you feel better off without them, then you know that it’s not right for you. If it hurts you more than it makes you happy, it’s not right for you. If you’re committed to yourself you will do the things it takes to make yourself be in a positive mindset and place and you will not let someone stand inbetween you and your life’s works. Make the decision that times where someone rude tells you what to do is over. You don’t need anything from them, cause everything you need you can get yourself. Put yourself first, do not be a doormat. Not for a family member, a friend, a partner, or a company.