Vivienne Westwood Fall/Winter 2019/2020 Show Message

Make your own things and stopping buying stuff you don’t need.

Spoon on left ear: there is no such thing as fatality death. Just “death”.

Nasa lying about what climate change is, they are telling you it’s public knowledge the ozone going down under Paris and will soon not be able to survive in.

All the info is in the cards(occult knowledge/tarot/metaphorically) which are laid out on the table.Everyone worried about the wrong things. Things are going to come up, and go down. Physically and metaphysically.

Soon the mark of the beast well be given to the new born children, who aren’t evolving organically but instead controlled by the AI in their skin.

Head wraps and full suits needed for the palest.

The more melanin the more you’ll shine.

You think you can handle the new world, Fool?

The arctic peace treaty is being compromised by Russia which will be the catalyst for the “invasion” and why we need “space force” which activates and starts “the game” laying the “first cards down”

Power can be achieved by invoking human emotions and then keeping plans in secret.

The world’s separated by those who don’t think and impulsively act or do as their told, and those who think and are intelligent and always willing to learn more and brainstorm to solve problems, like what to do to have a peaceful world. They talk about their plans on how to take over the world every month at their little book club meetings.

If you’re rich enough, gold leafed masks may be used to reflect or alchemize uvb rays for paler races.

Buy lies. We’re taught when we are young, be who you are, which isn’t what you are already as is, but what is seemingly unachievable unless a magical fairy granted your wish or you pay the right price. All the characters in stories are energies to be matched with yourself as a guide, who will you be?

Will you eat whatever is convenient, knowing it will turn you into a jackass of corporate consumption?

The elect are not honest with us Like they claim in stories and movies they allow though, they mix the truth with fiction to confuse and mislead the masses.

Art is the truth which is why it can’t be regulated.

If you continue to ignore what history has taught, and claim only in the moment counts, there is no future for you to obtain, this is the lie.

The world cares more about political correctness, feelings, and opinions rather than the truth and the facts and the logic. This is why they are blind to the truth.

It’s a lie that spending everything and ignorantly paying for something without questioning will make you rich. Obviously not true. You have to use discernment and discipline.

You’re buying crap you don’t need that’s worth shit to fund assholes who contribute nothing back to society and their communities.

Democracy is a lie pushing everyone to a one world order which only accelerates the elects’ further destruction of the current state of our world as we know it.

Things will happen to shake things up and make the playing field more fair and even.

Just because someone doesn’t admit they’re evil doesn’t make it so. It gets their dicks hard to Fuck you over like that and you just take it.

Stop lying to children about climate change being their responsibility. Tell the fucking truth.

We are meant to speak with our words otherwise we’re devolving back to lower animals.

The elect try to portray themselves as innocent behind the aprons of ignorance. Social media and the army of drones in the echo chamber silence any healthy and progressive conversation or discussion on what to do to solve problems in the world.

The new lies for consumption is “it’s okay to spend even more now because it will save the ‘planet’ so it’s good, You’re allowed.”

They want you to think going into this new contract will be profitable for you.

What was once classically loved and upheld will soon be kissed goodbye to something more out of the box and experimental.

We come in and out of portals time and time again here and there. We choose partners we will share this go around with, don’t make the same agreements as before, follow the leads of example, the ones with roles that make you feel noble when you do as them. Then you can make an agreement with yourself to do better again always, just like before.

Say what you mean to say boldly without embarrassment, especially when you’re driven to by a stronger force than you, it’s needed.


First Week of November 2018 Guidance Message

This is a collective intuitive channeled message and tarot energy reading. Take what resonates for you and apply as it fits in your life. 


You go through the hard times so you can appreciate them when they’re good. You struggle so later you’re better prepared when it really matters for you or for someone else you come across. Speaking of someone else, you can learn lessons from them if you can hear them out about their experiences rather than you having to go through it yourself first. Everything happens for a reason. It’s not about where you been or where you are but where you’re going. Look back then till now, see how far you’ve come? Now imagine the changes that are before you if you act now. If things haven’t changed much, then this is your wake up call too. It’s your perception how you take things. Think about alternative ways to respond to people rather than react. This will be a good first step into seeing changes you would prefer. When you’re getting close to giving up hope, or when things finally work out for you, lean on your faith and thank the lord for what you have been blessed with. An awareness to how your primal energy is being used may be needed at this time. Refrain from excessive pleasure of the body to strengthen the spirituality in you. Use that energy to progress yourself forward. If anything is of superficial nature or a substitution for a real thing, that will drain you. You need a beneficial reciprocation in anything for it to be a good and healthy bond. If not, you are depleting and cheating yourself and your partner if you have one of good life force that can be used to create progression in your life. There are more productive things to use that energy for, like manifesting what you want in your life. “Once a ________ always a ________” statements like this aren’t true. People can change for the better. Yes, even yourself. Commitment is here if you’d just stop trying to relive the past over and over long enough to see that they’ve been there waiting for you. You’ll get news of an unfortunate event but will be compensated for it. This has been a long time coming. Even if it doesn’t feel right be sure to stay where you’re at for this time. This will bring in the new offer if you’re silent and still there. It’s not that you want to go, but you are tired of feeling mistreatment and misunderstood. You deserve more and expect more and the truth is you can have whatever you want so why should you put up with it? You’re getting over the fact that they seem unhappy with you no matter what you do and you’re over it because you can get that anywhere. Do not join in the negative mindset. It’s a sad story but your life has been hard enough without all this in it. Those times in your life are over. Now it’s about doing things right. Committing to yourself and your faith remembering you will always be protected and the blessing is waiting for you to let go of what isn’t good for you so it can be gifted to you. If something upsetting from the past returns handle it with a wiser stand point than before. You have everything on your side waiting for you to allow yourself to move forward in your life. You know internally what to do in those moments of peace and silence. Listen.

End of August to Beginning of September 2018 Tarotscope All Elements


You can’t expect others to give you what you want if you don’t even know that yourself. You may quit something that others would view as sad or hard to let go of but you actually wanted this because you want to focus elsewhere. Someone feels better off due to nothing being shown for the time invested and feeling like all the arguing is due to someone offering things to someone outside of the union. They’re not going to do anything though because they feel like you should be the one who comes out and says what ever it is that you need to say. You can’t make offers when you’re not stable. You can’t progress in life much if you’re not stable and you know you’ve been partaking in something toxic and/or addictive that confuses your judgement and rationalization skills. Everyone else can’t always be the enemy. Look at what you are giving your power to. Find the confidence, strength, and compassion to offer the world your Best Self once again. You deserve happiness too, karma can be cleared. Now is the time to be a balanced new you.


You could be really happy but you choose to be a way that makes this other person suffer from major anxiety instead. You don’t properly show them security and affection. Someone is going to feel left out or leave if they keep feeling like you’re incapable of being committed and being emotional or have the ability to atleast self reflect. This doesn’t make for a happy home and they are tired of dealing with the bullshit. You have been known to be manipulative and sneaky, when two people tried to say something they got cut out for it, and nothing can seem to stick long in your life. Who’s fault is that? You are anxious because you think you are better off on your own but the right thing to do in this situation is not go out and spend your time and money with others but better spent on yourself and closest ones to you, putting down some bad habits, and investing more into your personal interests and relationships. When has lying ever worked for you long term? Or made you happy? Maybe you only feel this way because you’re too busy comparing things or people you shouldn’t be. You know in your heart that with a little more love and support you can see that would allow the other person to bloom fully into them self through what they have with you in the relationship. Offer them no manipulation, no anxiety, and alot of happiness, and you know it’ll turn out better than you had wished for. Be open with your feelings and take the lesson with the blessing and go forward with healing and then you can grow and be stronger.


You can have more options, stop giving so much to someone who doesn’t place you first in their life. The truth is deep down you know this investment hasn’t been fulfilling but you can turn the situation around 180 if you stop caring about what others say and think about what you do. You’re happy going “nowhere” but others may view you negatively for that but that’s because they’re insecure within themselves not being able to feel validated and secure at a contentment level border-lining “mediocre” in society’s standards. You want a renewal in your life with something or someone that you’re passionate about and a commitment you are coming out about how you feel about them. Someone maybe doesn’t want to fight about how they don’t feel you’re really there for them the same because they think it’s them just being insecure. They are doing what they can to deal with all that you’ve put them through, because you were selfish and not balanced. Now you are and you want to do what’s right. Things are alot happier when you boost their confidence. If you’re really paranoid, make sure you’re not under some influence. Also make sure you’re not being too idle because that can create bad manifestation as well.


This is what you’ve been wishing for. Just gotta work a little bit longer at it. If you need to be a little more reserved to feel better just explain why you are doing so. Recently you said how you felt about a situation and things have been adjusting around your preferences. You have what you’ve been hoping for but haven’t been able to feel the success of reaching this point yet. You can’t see it but out of nowhere you’re going to be receiving something good that’ll make you happier. You are so upset over what’s happened that you haven’t stopped to see all the inner work this other person has been doing. You’re beyond ripe for creating something huge and wonderful. You’re anxious and can’t sleep because you feel ugly, tainted, and worthless. You have to know and remember you are radiantly attractive, abundant, creative, caring, and you got this. You don’t see yet how much blessing is waiting for you in this union. You are strong it’s okay to be vulnerable and happy at the same time. You are caring more about what selfish miserable people have said and think you deserve shit and for someone who doesn’t put up with other people’s bullshit that’s some bullshit right there telling yourself that. So quit creating drama and unhappiness if you want to feel content. In the past they may not have offered much but that’s changing now, so get ready. There was something you set out to do before but things happened which made it become another burden for you to carry. Especially when you are remembering when others would tell you your life has been hard because that’s what you’ve deserved. You deserve to be happy and if a relationship isn’t doing it for you you’re not going not stay stuck. You don’t need to be controlled while they’re doing whatever they want. Take back your power and regain balance. You’ll be happy alone if they can’t get right because that’s not at all what you wanted when you got with them and there’s no second chances if they don’t try to make it up right away. It’s not worth it to be treated that way. Something may make you want to explode but it may be better to just get out for a bit. Understand others may not see you for who you really are but they do try to be fair and give you your independence but also try to care for you at the same time. It might look questionable or shady to others, but who really cares its about you and them at the end of the day.

End of August 2018 Tarotscope

Some of these may not resonate with everyone. Take what works and apply it to your situation. They’re general readings. Thank you




You want to move away quickly from the things you know aren’t benefiting you. The only way to stop feeling the way you do is leave or quickly offer your love to this person because what you’ve been doing to them is unfair and will never workout if you always are creating drama due to another person knocking you off balance. In the past you maybe lied and were manipulative, didn’t want to commit, and keeping other choices around. They are guarded now that they’re building themselves back up and in a relationship they moved on because they want commitment that’s something you wouldn’t do for them. You pouting over nothing coming from this is you being immature and playing victim. Time to move on. The more you try to do this the more anxious you’ll be. There’s nothing left there and trying to make a fool of them publicly will not do anything to help you, especially if you were hoping for some help. Making people out to be your enemy and making yourself feel victimized and defeated is blocking you in life and creating unnecessary havoc. You’d be much happier moving forward and going at it alone. You need your strength and focus on yourself getting better. It may not seem good at first but break this addiction and you will see. You can only blame your perception on whether “the world is yours” vs. “I’m stuck and can’t do anything about it.” Choose to let it go or have the universe rip it away in a way you surely won’t get it back.


You’re entirely way into your own head. Anxious over all scenarios. They are happy with you. Just because they do not always accept your offers doesn’t mean they don’t want to be with you. They feel weak if they are not withholding their own independence. You want a refreshment in your life and relationship and that’ll happen when you help keep them in a confident and balanced state by showing off your commitment to them. You’re lying to yourself if you feel like people are trying or expect you to stay trapped at home. That’s a third party or an addiction trying to tell you that. Offer it to the one who’s been there for you even when you know they didn’t need to put up with it. The quicker you shape up the better because they aren’t afraid to leave it all behind. You’re letting go of some burdens you had and focusing on being you and making the decision to live correctly which will take alot of stress off of you. You can’t see the damage this will do if you continue to do the things you know are not beneficial for you. Time for a new slate where even if it hurts you’re not putting up with the lies or manipulation. You can have it all as along as you let them be them and don’t try to manipulate or control them. Nothing good is going to come from acting how you are when you’re trying to order them around so quit being stubborn and closed off or you’re going to lose your chance with this. This is everything you’ve wanted so be strong and stop fighting with them. Go after the things you like stop worrying about others, you’re causing most of your own stress.


You did this to yourself. You’re your own worst enemy. You do these things because you’re immature not because anything happened to cause and excuse you to behave like this so be strong and really account yourself and make the changes you see and feel you need. Things would turn around for you if you’d just do the right thing. You don’t see that if you don’t properly close this cycle out then you’re going to have a bad time because you aren’t thinking ahead to when people find out about you and the unhappiness you’ve caused if you go through with this. There’s no happy relationship here. You leave people behind, hide away with your unstable emotions, and live life defensively. Anxiety every night is sure to be a success here, folks! If you’re not offering them money they don’t want to hear it. Stop investing in something that’s breaking your heart.


So rigid. So tense. This relationship is healing you though. It’s teaching you to accept your worth and to understand that everything you went through has earned you your happiness today. Enjoy it. Stay put and adjust things to how you would prefer it without asking for permission and guilt. It’s better than just quitting or dipping out without trying, right? You may just end up getting what you want and being happy without having to leave. It’s okay to want to take things slow to make sure no manipulation is going on against you. You can’t move past certain issues because you aren’t putting your energy to better uses and don’t feel a sense of security because you spend too much time thinking rather than doing. By chance you could be really happy if you offer something from what seemed like nothing. You’ll be happier when you can leave the mindset of having to care about how you seem or look to others. The drama and things people say don’t matter at the end of the day. What matters is how you handle it. Let down the burden of caring about what negative people have to say and instead focus on what opportunities in the world are being offered to you by just you being you. Take a step in a direction that’s meant for you by having the courage to do the things you’ve always wanted to do despite how others may have made you feel about it before. If you can find things to get you out of your shell and confident in yourself then alot of your codependency issues will start to fade. Do it and start watching the results come in. Offer your energy to what emotionally stabilizes you. The truth is this person loves you so stop being immature. Be healthy. Be happy. Think positive.

Day 182.5 <3

I walked to the market,
spur of the moment I wanted to go to the bar for a coffee.
“Maybe some kahlua?” that’s all I was really concerned about, actually.
As I looked upwards from my feet
a guy in a bright green jacket was walking across the street.

I thought maybe he was looking at me,
my brain scoffed in reply.

I sat down and ordered my drink while staring off into space, thinking
“This is the only place around to walk to that I feel is safe, and if not atleast I have my wrench and mace.”

About half hour to fourty five minutes go by.
I wave down my bartender and ask her for my check and start to say good bye.
“It’s already paid for, you can just go”
I’m confused and my defenses are up and I’m ready to blow.
“Really? From who?” I ask with a subtle attitude.
She points down to my left, it’s the bright green jacket dude.

I tell him thank you, and he starts to talk,
I’m on my snapchat.
He asks for my snapchat.
How am I supposed to clap back?

“Haha, funny enough, I’m on that right now”
I say without trying to sound disappointed or frown.
Not because I am not interested in this guy,
he’s pretty frickin cute,
but because I know how I am and I know what I’ve been through.
I know what I do, I know what I’ve seen,
I know the things that cannot be erased from my own memory.

I give him my username, add him right back.
Now he’s trying to ask me where do I live at.
Doesn’t he know that that’s kind of intrusive?
Hell what does it matter, you’ve been through worse.
Do you really think that you are cursed?

I tell him where I currently reside.
He asks if I need a ride?
I tell him thanks but no, I got somewhere else to go.
He asks if I want him to pick me up and then take me
I know it’s not smart based on the past, or want to waste his time, my faults he cannot yet see.

So disappointedly I leave and to the store I go,
grab my items melancholily,
“fuck, why did I have to say no?”
I walk home, quietly thinking.
Wondering how soon till this ship will be sinking.

I get home and inform him of my job, my issues, and how sometimes I struggle to stay strong.
I hold my breath and wait for him to say “No thanks, I’ll be moving along.”
To my surprise he instead invited me over.
“This is a trap, it must be” the paranoia now has me sober.
The next day he came over and picked me up.
Back to his house to meet his roommates and do my laundry.
Seems like things are moving right along.
Really fast.
“Who is she and what is she doing here?” someone asks.

I agree. What am I doing here? I barely know this guy, I feel like a burden.
He assures me it’s fine, cooks dinner for me. Things are going well, then everything goes dark suddenly.

He yells and is frustrated, one of his roommates isn’t sure why?
I try to ease him with impromptu.
“Hey! It’s good! It’s romantic, let’s light a candle it’s fine.”

After we ate, we got in the hot tub.
Watched leaves and pinecones fall from the windstorm blowing up above.
Part of me is unsure why I’m here allowing myself to do this, the other part of me has some kind of unknown knowing,
that you’re going to be okay, this is a hit not a miss.

We both know how the rest of the next few weeks went,
fast forward a couple months,
half a year infact.
We’re still growing together, despite my frequent lack of tact.

You’re always there for me,
even when I think you won’t be.
I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop,
I know I probably am worried for nothing, but I’m not sure how to stop.
Still you assure me, that I can do no wrong,
that we’ll still be together a year from now,
that we are going strong.
That time with you showing me how much you love me every day,
that you’re loyal to me,
and your love isn’t going to fade,
that these will be the things that’s going to make our relationship made.

You see a potential in me, that no one else has pointed out.
You have a belief in my recovery, when even professionals have noted their own doubts.

I’m glad we met, and now I see
divine timing is what brought me to you,
and you to me.

I wanna believe you with all that I have.
Like when you tell me you’re not going anywhere,
and that my heart isn’t something I need to hide.

I hope writing this doesn’t some how jinx us.
Deep down and when it counts I think you’re someone I can trust.

I love you so much and I hope I show you more every day how grateful I am that you came my way.

August 2018 Mid Month Tarotscope All Elements

Some of these may not resonate with everyone. Take what works and apply it to your situation. They’re general readings. Thank you 🙂



You feel stuck but are forgetting that you also are greedy and don’t want to commit but want to have your cake and eat it too. How’s that working out for you? It’d work out better for you if you’d just become grateful of what you currently have without comparing it to you r past or others now. You think it’s passion but all it really is is a way to screw yourself. You think you owe something to someone and you need to realize it’s an issue you’ve not resolved telling you that, not that it’s the truth. You will be more successful to be your own boss instead of bossing around others. You are stuck till you learn your lesson.


You can see how much better it is without drama and unnecessary bullshit in your life now. You feel confused at times about a situation or person because you’re not used to this personality but that’s because they are good on their own and they don’t need to deal with it. Try to make your offers without being immature it will work much better for you. You feel happy but might worry if it’s fake. The person who you really need to question isn’t the person who’s been right all along it’s the fraudulent party and yourself. They’re the ones who left you out in the cold and tried to manipulate your partner. Leave what didn’t work in the past and continue forward because you’ve won! You also are getting out of your own way and committing to something and dropping your guard so you can stop worrying if it’ll have all been for a waste or not investing into it.


Congrats! You had options! Feel lucky? You don’t want this couple happy and are wanting to offer money if they break up. You not quitting your bad habits is what is becoming a huge burden to yourself and those around you. All you do is lie. You pretend like you will offer someone the world and you are just unfair at the end of the day. You wish you could go back to the past and have stopped this somehow but the issue is they already saw it coming from a mile away. You can’t offer anything when you can’t decide if you even want to talk to these people or not. Is having fun more important to you than the investments you’ve put effort into? What you think was a granted wish might just have been someone trying to control you and live off of your successes. Stay alert and be happy with yourself regardless if that relationship is working out for you or not.


Some peole dindn’t want you to succeed or be around because it was a problem for them, not that you are a problem. You were feeling not so hot but you’re coming out of feeling broke and unstable and things will be turning around for you because of your hopeful efforts and faith. Forget what you -were- about and -were- working on. What makes you feel happy now? Don’t let naysayers affect you and your decisions. Don’t worry about all the “what if’s?” in your life anymore. You are beautiful and a smart person and have the ability to control your emotions and improve your life. It’s immature at this point to not do that. Whatever is bothering you and conflicting you so much, find a way to make it a positive. When you’re in charge of yourself and you have mastered your emotions you have a commanding power that cannot be argued with easily. Take charge of your own happiness. It’s taking alot out of you to trust that there’s a commitment and support for you here, but you have to also realize your sense of judgement may be affected to a degree due to a disorder or past trauma. You will be much more at peace and successful if you stop trying to always argue with people who -want- to offer you something. That’s a huge indication of your low self worth issues. Put yourself out there and find the support you need or create that space for yourself. You don’t need to be or do anything extra than be who you are authentically to be deserving of a happy life. To think anything different is a negative thought your mind’s anxiety is trying to create to distract you from progressing further past it. It’s not fair to you or your partner to keep letting those thoughts control you. It’s time for a new life, because the one you were in was not making you happy. Realize you’re not a bad person, and you are worth looking towards the future and be able to make commitments to your dreams without feeling like you’re bullshitting yourself about it. What you wish for is -right- there, if you could just stop griping about what didn’t work in your past before to realize you can use all of your blessings to get what you want and that that’s okay! It’s better to be the real you vs manipulating others always. Sometimes, it’s for the best of everyone around! You might even find out that you’re not that bad after all, despite what those in the past may have had you believing.

Ramblings August 3rd 2018

“Abused children have post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) rates equal to returning war vets.”

Throwing that out there to remind people you don’t always know what someone’s dealing with and also treat people right for crying out loud.

“Most women who’ve been through what you’ve been through would’ve shot themselves in the face by now”
Not something a domestic abuse advocate should say to someone seeking help after having the courage to ask for it. This is what’s wrong with our society.

“Well it seems like you’re problem is your just a little ball of hate at your core.”
Not something a “professional therapist” should say to the client who had the courage to seek help. This is what’s wrong with our society.

If people want to make you feel like you’re fucked up because that’s just how you are they’re not trying to understand you to help.

Sometimes you feel alone and feel hopeless but you’re not and to somebody you do matter. Even if you have to soldier it out alone in your head you got this. Find the little things that will get you through, and wake up again tomorrow to fight for another day. If you make them count, is not a waste. In 6 months time you’ll look back and realize how much you’ve grown and what you’ve been able to do for yourself and others and infact you are pretty awesome and you are worth it. Good people end up being hurt but what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger and one day you will see why everything happened the way it did.


July 2018 Mid Month Tarotscope All Elements


These are general tarot readings for each element and are not personal, therefore, some of the messages may or may not resonate. Please take what does, and leave behind what isn’t meant for you 




In the past you entertained the many options you were surrounding yourself with and acting independently. The investment you had put in wasn’t paying off for you the way you would’ve preferred but addictions played a part in this heart break. Nothing was happening so someone moved on. Where you once felt secure and confident a decision was made with better judgement and a relationship was cut off and finished. Now is the time to go within and find out slowly but surely who you are and what you are all about. What controls and sways your emotions and how to get them in check. You’ve been upset over being blocked by someone and you hope by chance they fail so you can come in to save the day. They’re entirely too happy with who they’re with right now to even see you and what you’re attempting. You don’t want them to have a successful happy new beginning without you. You want to stay stuck in a never ending tug of war with them. They’ve been patient with you long enough. They’ve turned their cheek to you too many times. They aren’t dealing with anyone’s bullshit and they’re being successful. They’re not dealing with drama, immaturity, only those who are committed to serving and helping them grow and achieve their goals. Make a decision to be happy yourself and turn a new leaf with less fighting and more recovering/rehabilitating.



You’re walking away from the independent mindset and slowing things down being happy with one choice. You can see victory with them but know you can’t approach them with immaturity or lies. You will be rewarded for starting a new chapter with them.  Success is here in this partnership but someone needs help with anxieties over disruption at work and home. You are advised to remember during times of struggle what’s been invested and why and hold onto that. You will find so much out about yourself and receive happiness and abundance after you work with this person to be strong and grow by learning how to drop the baggage you never should’ve been carrying in the first place. You think being a manipulator and having options will make you happy and secure but all it’s going to do is ruin everything you’ve been building towards. Commitment is the way. You’re not listening to your intuition which is telling you what to offer and to who. This person who seems cold and blunt is dealing with heartbreaks and disappointments from the past. They want to be happy and trust you and not worry of situations from their past repeating. They know they’re in their head. They need to feel confident and empowered and like they rule their own part of the world because of their fears. Go within and ask yourself why you feel remorseful and stuck. Why you’re impatient yet can’t offer a stable relationship yourself? You want a happy union? Stop being an aloof asshole and be fair. Realize the relationship won’t last if it’s not stable because they’ll feel your dishonesty. You don’t want to make offers to anyone, but you don’t want to move forward. you don’t want a new beginning, but you don’t want to be contained. You can’t see if you’re better off working on this or moving on. All you can see is independence. Careful what you wish for you just might get it.



You’ve been offering nothing but drama, immaturity, and instability to a home or not thinking of others in your home enough. You need to come out of this and find a way to be happy without addictions. Don’t offer anything to anyone until you’ve dealt with your burdens and got out of the things you let mentally affect you. You think there’s someone who is cold and blunt kicking you out onto the curb and this is causing you alot of anxiety. You can’t see how this partnership outside of you is working but you feel like one of them is manipulative and a liar. They’re generous and stable with one another and because of your insecurities about yourself quickly changing for the better you’re getting in the way of that cycle closing out for them. You think by one person not going yet that this puts you at an advantage and you’re committed to not going soon but you’re procrastination is keeping you stuck and better opportunities await you. Two of you will leave regardless of what you feel you invested. The whole world is out there waiting for you. Happiness is a choice and by viewing these situations as bad luck instead of an opportunity to build self confidence and utilize your own power to take control of your life and get control of your emotions back you’re keeping yourself idle and stale. Stop the conflict before you get a taste of something you really don’t want. Your past does bring karma your way eventually so be mindful of whether you’re manifesting or manipulating. If you can find the inner strength to be happy about your new beginning without this person who you had to offer money to you will soon see this wouldn’t have been a fair or beneficial situation for you anyways. You’re getting news of stability and balance being offered to you. You’re not paying what you should because you are spiteful towards someone you blame this issue on. What you are unwilling to see is what you were partaking in was bad and not good for the group setting you were in. When you can let it go your own home life and relationship will improve. If they can do it , you can too. This person is helping to force you to take the first step towards being in charge of your own life. You can’t make valid offers till you’re not having issues anymore with addictions, and not until you can be grateful for the things you already have.



Someone is trying to offer you news of something and you just don’t care. At one point you would’ve but that was a long time ago and you’ve had plenty of time to reflect back on the situation and realized just how unfair and bad it really was and you’re done with people like that for good. You can have a happy new chapter in life if you can let the anxieties go that others put on you. Don’t be heartbroken and feel crummy about yourself. Instead take all those emotions and turn them into a gold to bond the broken pieces of yourself back together. (Think Chinese repairing broken dishware) You have been through so much crazy stuff you have a ton of content to work with. Someone close to you may not feel their best but they are very happy to be with you and happy to be coming out of the rough time in their life and they want to make you an offer. In the past they never wanted to fight but they couldn’t see at the time that that didn’t mean commitment. It was just immaturity. You realize you need shake ups sometimes to turn things around to save a relationship. You know you met them by chance but it wasn’t for no reason. You need to drop your burdens and get out of your head and be happy…you made it! You see the bigger picture when it comes to your partner and someone else they cared about. In the end they’ll see what you were trying to tell them. You could offer more and be happier if you stopped worrying about your relationship so much and used that energy for your own life and the new things you want to do for yourself. You can manifest what you want where you are right now. It can be whatever you want and you’d be content and not trying to control everything if you realized they’re not always trying to attack you. Sometimes they just don’t feel the greatest and just don’t want to do things. Not a reflection of you and the partnership or how they feel about you. Instead focus on what you like and what makes you happy, don’t be unfair about it but it’s okay to be a little reserved if that is what will boost your mood and ground yourself. The truth is you’ve got a huge disadvantage when you’re being guarded with who you are. Quickly you will hear about how people aren’t contacting you to say they want to offer you anything, but to praise you on who you are and how it’s helped them in some kind of way just by being you.

Half Birthday Check Point

It’s my half birthday! What have I learned in the last 6 months?

Drop the toxic people. No, really. I don’t care who you think they are to you to them you’re just a source for them to drain off of till you’re empty and dry and then you will be discarded like the trash they valued you as.

You can’t be a hypocrite and have people take you seriously.

If you fucked me over once I’m not in the wrong to be paranoid of you for the rest of any times we interact in the future.

If I get a bad feeling, I No longer question it.

Only by having hope and faith will the law of attraction work in your favor.

I deserve whatever I think I deserve and I No longer carry the past burdens others wanted me to carry for them because those are theirs not mine.

The truth is the only way to progress.

Pain is inevitable but necessary for healing anything wounded or ailed.

People tell on themselves through projection.

I still don’t need any of this material shit the media and society tries to tell me I need.

I am blessed to have everything I have and I know that this is because when you do what’s right and you be the best you can be regardless of the tools you are given then you will always be good and have good things come to you.

It can seem like it’s always going to be a struggle but also make sure that that’s not just your perception being tainted by neglect/abuse from your support system or even yourself.

Try your best to choose peace and optimism because life here is short and not worth wasting it on things or people who aren’t serving your highest good and purpose.

Empathy : Strength :: Apathy : Purgatory

Beginning to Mid Month July 2018 Tarotscope


These are general tarot readings for each element and are not personal, therefore, some of the messages may or may not resonate. Please take what does, and leave behind what isn’t meant for you 




Beginning to Mid – July 2018 Beginning to Mid – July 2018

What may seem like unfortunate timing for something may actually be the best for the situation. It moves you forward and helps ease some of the conflicts you were having before. The realization hits you that your addictions are what are creating you instability and unhappiness at home.  You’re being offered an opportunity to put your addictions down but it upsets you because this seems to be the only thing that brings you happiness. You need to know that it’s a huge drain on your resources and keeps you stuck in a cycle. You may feel unable to do all the things that need to be done to fulfill someone and make things right with them. You feel guarded from the one you long for but aren’t feeling close to. Someone doesn’t feel secure anymore so they go to the grapevine to inform someone of their burden.  You think money is all that matters right now and you need to get out of that naive/greedy mentality. You are up at night and worrying during the day over the person who’s time you wasted. In the future a happy and stable home is possible. A new beginning is unblocked when a commitment to security was made over the unstable system that was once intact. you are lying to yourself and keeping yourself stuck if you think you don’t have addictions. You can see being happy where you are after you are away from certain people.  For a happy relationship of any kind, you must be working on self stability and not being petty or weak.

You feel disadvantaged due to someone picking relationships over what you had together. However they don’t even value those relationships either so is that really someone you want around anyways? This wasn’t fulfilling you and you decided you didn’t want to be anxious over it anymore. You feel jilted by someone throwing away a long term investment over something trivial in comparison to other things you’ve been through. You took the time to listen to someone who is decisive, about no bullshit, reliable, and fair. They said the unstable people ought to go if a new cycle is to start. The old ways of excessive indulgences is no longer because things weren’t being handled correctly.  You are being guarded from your partner even though you are looking at them positively. You’re worried that the new beginning will turn into a regret. In the past you’ve been rejected and left behind but seeing things the same way now isn’t the right judgement call. Offer more than just sex and secrets. If you don’t want fights or distance learn patience with them overcoming their burdens that they carry. Commitment is here they just don’t see that it’s real yet. They’re still waiting for it to go bad. Things will change now. The situation was seen negative but be strong and know that wasn’t going to be a stable foundation to build a future on anyways. Now you can see who’s really there for you and who isn’t. Happiness in the home will come when things move forward with changes.  Someone has tried starting a rumor that your money is being spent elsewhere. Luckily the person who matters knows the truth about why it seems like there’s not alot of money.

Someone saw that you weren’t bringing stability and peace to a home and said enough with the drama and drugs. You and this other person think the reason you are going is because of an evil lying person who fakes being sick or disordered. When you can put down your burden of addictions though then you will see that your addictions stood in the way of you joining in the new beginning. You didn’t add value of peace to the home and they didn’t want you to leave but no one felt good with you there anymore…selfish and with your head up your ass. This person doesn’t tolerate bullshit and advised that immaturity doesn’t offer opportunity or stability. You think you can convince them that this can work out but your efforts would be better spent working on yourself and what you can do to make yourself happy elsewhere. The truth is you were arrogant and wrong to act the way you did. You don’t even have enough to start a new beginning yet instead of being independent you chose relationship/sex and it’s led you to this. Any offers against this commitment won’t work like they did in the past. They’re happier now being strong and not doing things that would jeopardize their relationship. The world is waiting to offer you something good if you’d put down your vices and get out of your negative head space.  Let go of your addictions, be happy. Even if you don’t know where you’re going know that if you aren’t guarded things will happen for you.

You’re moving on from people who make you anxious. You are prioritizing stability and balance. Someone will block you and that is because they’re weak but by them starting this shift now things are coming out that show how much of an enemy they are. Some may not want to let it go but give them time they’ll get over it. Just make sure they don’t turn to vices to cope, including watching yourself. You saw no happy home here if the past kept continuing. You offered your stability and reliability to accommodate them if they helped you with this.  Know you make them happy and that you helped them see that these people weren’t worth anymore investment. They see you’re not about the bullshit and can offer things instead of being stuck doing the same things. They are paranoid of people right now and so they’re trying to put you in the same self sabotaging mentality. You don’t want more conflict but you aren’t sure if you want to keep offering if it turns out what others are saying is true about your partner you are ready to move on if you need to.  A new beginning seems burdensome and like it’s unfairly taking forever to happen but you know you need to be in control of your emotions to deal with them not being able to handle theirs at this moment. Nothing is going on but you feel guarded in relationships and like you always need to be on the defense. You struggle with feeling secure and mature enough for a relationship right now. You know this disorder/issue you are struggling with makes relationships difficult at times. You’ll be happy letting them be them and letting go of worrying about their habits and issues. Do you while still doing what’s right for the commitment. You can come out of your shell and be happy and in love. When people leave that’s when the unhappiness and lying and drama stops. That’s when worrying about what’s yours and secure and stable ends. Don’t offer shit if you aren’t feeling abundant enough or like it’ll would be reciprocated. Don’t offer anything to those who think they can overpower you or take advantage of you. Move past those who are miserable and insecure. Soon your anxiety will cease and you’ll be balanced again and at peace.