Shanann Watts Tarot Reading

Done with all respect for her, the children, and her friends and family.

2-10-2019

This is what intuitively came to me through channeled messages and use of divination through prayer entry with God. I don’t know the accuracy of the messages, but I feel inclined to share.

“i want everyone to know i wasn’t happy but i did what i could. i was trying.
crying. why would you do this to me or our kids
really we hope they all learn a lesson about what family really means and what people try to make it seem. what marriage really is and what it just seemed like. i never thought he would do something like this. things have been bad but never this bad. the man who saved me and protected us turning on us is not what i imagined us doing together with our life and future.
why was she in our house. why couldnt you just keep her out. why couldnt you just leave if you were not happy. why couldnt you just be honest with me once. i knew something was wrong and i waitied too late. tell nicole that she will always be my best friend and my hero. i know she did her best and im proud of her for standing up to chris for us. im glad to all who knew i was not that wife and not that mother. look up more symbolism of the names and number and how he hurt us and buried us. these are clues to a bigger organization that conspired this and started it all. also thrive has no benefits and if i had been more concerned about working honestly instead of just making sales then maybe i would’ve not missed the signs that were warning me to stop and evaluate things in my relationship with him. I was just trying to get money incase he dipped on us cause I just knew something was wrong.

Don’t let anyone, even the person you love, stifle or smother your wants and needs of living a happily fulfilled life. If something tells you something is really wrong, do not ignore it. it was the death of me and my children. If someone is being distant with you and rejecting you, especially in bed, they are hiding something from you and it can be dentrimental. Make sure also your self worth is not lacking. It prevents you from falling for the wrong people and prevents them from being able to pull one over on you. Also if you are insecure or feel you don’t deserve something you will put off that energy and attract what you don’t want to you. Practice being unaffected by the negative energy around you. Your soul approves of you at all times, even if your human body doesn’t. Things can’t run smoothly or easier if you are doing them seperate of someone else in a partnership. Two heads are better than one. Road in a relationship means people meet half way. Not one always going to the other. Don’t let yourself get so down that others can easily take advantage of you. Some things are not meant to be held onto. Don’t trust people who don’t open up to you. ” – from who I believe to be Shanann herself.

Channeled Information:

Shanann was too confident and happy to lower herself to what Chris wanted from her. He was too immature to let her go and cheated with someone who was willing to do the things Shanann would not. Chris was anxious all the time and felt less of a man because she would not submit to him and his desires. He wanted her to abort or miscarry and get a divorce, but knew that she wouldn’t do it at the point he made the decision in his mind and he was worried about child support and alimony. Chris only acted as if Nickole had what he wanted in a relationship, the truth was he never wanted one and the same thing or something similiar would’ve happened to her when he was bored of her too. He has no remorse and no will to change his ways. It turns out his plan wasn’t as good as he thought. He let her go to North Carolina under the presumption that they would work it out in the end, but he was already celebrating and starting his new life without her, even spending money on someone else and taking money away from her and the children. He acted fine and content with his life but no one could have known how much of a manipulator he was. He seemed happy in his life and he did things when Shanann would get all up in her feelings and thought his storming out or anger would be justified because of her behavior. Then he would go cheat and she would not be able to say anything because they fought so that’s why he must have left the house. When Chris said he wanted a divorce, she said she would be moving and if he didn’t give her everything she wanted he couldn’t talk to them or see them. He thought he was in the right to take power into his own hands with the execution of the ending. She didn’t want to fight, she just wanted to go to sleep. She didn’t really want to divorce, she wanted things to slow down so they could figure it out. He didn’t want the drama, he wanted to just make himself happy. The truth was it was everything he wanted but he couldn’t get a grip on his feelings with Shanann. He felt he was not good enough of a man for her and his kids, a loser, a deviant controlling tyrant. He wanted to be fair, but lust got in the way and then when Nickole spoke of the success they would have once they were together enamored him. Being emotionally immature was his downfall, as Nickole was an even bigger manipulator than he was. He was burdened between having to hurt the family or lose Nickole. He didn’t want to make the decision so soon. Nickole got in his head about how Shanann is just trying to keep him stuck in life and will never truly fulfill him or give him what he wants long term. She made him choose between a happy new beginning with her or a long miserable marriage without her on the side. He was anxious over the issue. He was not happy with how insecure Nickole was acting by putting him in this position, but he really liked the things she did for him in bed and was not willing to give it up. He wished that he said it sooner that he lost feelings for Shanann before it got to this point but now that the threat was on the table he couldn’t be strong enough to face Shanann and deal with the financial sacrifices it would take to make it all work out the right way. He never saw himself able to get out of the debt they already were in, so it didn’t matter anyways to him at that point.

You can’t give someone else the power over how you see yourself, feel yourself, or your prosperity, peace, and abundance. If you are not in control of your emotions and things don’t seem fair, ask yourself is this too much of a burden on you? Are your feelings and efforts being reciprocated? Are you happy and feel like you’re winning in life, or do you feel like it’s a failure and a drain? Ask God to deliver you from this energy and to make things how they ought to be. Be happy on your own, don’t be codependent on someone else and expect them to be your rock and savior. You will be disappointed. Do what makes you happy, if that doesn’t make someone else happy tell them they need to come correct or you need to move on. If you pull back and see that you feel better off without them, then you know that it’s not right for you. If it hurts you more than it makes you happy, it’s not right for you. If you’re committed to yourself you will do the things it takes to make yourself be in a positive mindset and place and you will not let someone stand inbetween you and your life’s works. Make the decision that times where someone rude tells you what to do is over. You don’t need anything from them, cause everything you need you can get yourself. Put yourself first, do not be a doormat. Not for a family member, a friend, a partner, or a company.

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End of October 2018 Tarotscope

Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. You have a full natal chart, and energies can be switched. Apply it how it fits for you. This is a general, not personal reading. 

 

FIRE

Wean yourself if it’s too much at first. Let go of being upset that someone else took care of them self better than you could. The only thing to worry about now is healing yourself. The rest will follow after seeing you’re serious. It’s okay to be happier on your own. No one would blame you. But if you wanted to try again a tip is knowing this person just needs to hear that they weren’t a burden on you. You know you can’t offer them anything legitimate unless you’ve taken care of yourself first. You have to give this person time to grieve the fact that you’ve been selfish. There’s no new drama, they just are keeping their boundaries firm and keeping to themselves.

 

AIR

Have you imagined the loss of your closest person? The reason they think that they’re a burden is because their parents weren’t there like they should’ve been and they feel like there must be something wrong with them. So just express to them how they’re not too much for you. Keeping yourself balanced helps with ignoring external proposals that you don’t want. You have come too far to do some dumb selfish shit. You see how far they’ve come too, and don’t want them to have to start over either. You know they’re who you want you just want to be able to start your new slate clean and fresh. You can have what you want but you just need to be good with this one person or let them go. They were there when no one else was, and you still want them after you’ve gotten more success. Even when things aren’t great they find a way to make it good for you. Make sure to be grateful and caring in return and not abuse your power in the situation over them.

 

WATER

Before someone can be a life guard they are required to meet certain standards and be certified in emergency protocols. Also how can you save anyone if you aren’t saving yourself first? Stop being controlling hoping it’ll help you not lose things. If it’s meant to be out of your life it will be replaced with something else. The inability to accept love is emotional immaturity due to someone else saying you weren’t enough and others are better than you. You are choosing to give that person your own power when you agree to the idea of them finding someone better than you. Get to the point where if someone threatens to leave or say you deserve something less than your worth you won’t hesitate to call their bluff and walk away. It’s not that you don’t love them, it’s that you deserve to be happy and respected, end of story. You might have issues to no fault of your own, and happy or not, it’s only fair you give yourself a break to get back on your feet when you need it. Always working away because someone told you you had to doesn’t mean it’s the Law. You’re the boss of your own life. Not anybody else. If something makes you happy and feel full of purpose the money doesn’t need to be a concern it will follow with time. Quit giving time to things that aren’t good for you and start going after what it is you want to accomplish while you’re here.

 

EARTH

Anyone can be a magician or an evil sorcerer. Just depends how much dedication you apply to your studying and your practice. Also the mindset you choose to carry with your set of skills plays a part in your delivery and reception to your show. Don’t compare yourself to others you find naturally more talented at something than you either because attendance and effort reward eternally with experience. Some naturally with it will never appreciate their gift or be willing to share it with others. You do you. You are the one who needs to tame your emotional beast. No one else can do that for you. You can’t be manipulated by others if you’re “manipulating” yourself already. Anything that makes it harder on your emotions you need to deal with it. Others may be warning your partner to find someone else because of your emotional bullshit. Faith and working on your crafts and skills will bring you out of your anxiety and stress while benefiting you vs. the crap you know won’t. If unfortunately someone from your past who treated you like there was something out there better for them than you comes around don’t give it a second chance. You are over the drama and want to focus on yourself, not them. You don’t need dishonest, unbalanced, manipulative people in your life anymore. That also means you gotta stop your own mind games you play yourself too, right? Cause you ain’t a hypocrite.

 

COLLECTIVE

Say what it is you want said to you. Teal. Communication with the point to reach calmness and clarity. Lavender. Sometimes you have to wait to find how long “forever” will last with something. This waiting time is sacred and precious. It’s time you can better yourself with in preparation for the next stage. How you choose to use it is yours, but in this lifetime it’s time you will never get back. Use it with wise discretion. Dried Rose. You desire to keep the classic idea of romance, love, and beauty as your foundation to all things in your life you build upon. You also encourage and influence others to do the same in their own life. You could have the happiness you want if you focus on what you can do that’s good for you and not waste your time on things that are not. The choice is yours whether to keep things going or not. There’s no better time than now and your emotions are the only thing in your way.

Mid October 2018 Tarotscope

Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. You have a full natal chart, and energies can be switched. Apply it how it fits for you. This is a general, not personal reading. 

 

 

FIRE

You will get what you desire but first you must lay down the chasing of people who serve no purpose other than being a warm body to you. Focus on your dreams and don’t worry about the money because whatever you want from your heart you will get. You were investing in a commitment and the tables have turned and now you do whatever you shall please. Don’t expect them to stay though. Wait… you thought you could have your cake and eat everything else too? No. You can only have yours. Not keep yours and nibble here and there on other things. You know that’s not right. Be honest about the lack of morality that mindset is. You wanted things to go this way and were going to be happy about it before so really sit there and think about what it is you even want. Realize already you’re not balanced enough to know. Focus on the positive things in life. People walked out on you because of your treatment towards them and behavior. It’s not fair and they don’t deserve it. You know that’s not how you treat someone you love. If you want someone else, be honest about it. If you can’t then they need to be let go.

 

WATER

Drinking and drugs never help emotions. If you’re tired of feeling stuck do other things to feel good that aren’t drinking. You should give it a shot and try really hard at recovering from that before you decide to just throw a relationship with someone away. If you’re cheating on them or cheating them out of something that they need then that’s not fair. Fix what feels wrong, right your wrongs, and only do wrongs now when it comes to the things that make you feel trapped. Do what makes you happy and stop giving it to things and people that don’t. With power comes great responsibility. Don’t do it if you can’t submit yourself to the judgement when you’re out of line. Only committing to what’s right will fix the past. Slow down with drama if you want more success. Come out of the victim role. You know what’s manipulating you. You know that ruins your esteem. Get it under control.

 

AIR

This person views your retrieval of efforts as you giving it to somebody else. They think you want to go have fun with other people while you want them to “work on them self”. Your inability to be stable is putting this relationship on a halt. You think vices are more important than something you’ve always wanted? They aren’t going to keep being there for you if you keep adding to their burdens. Invest in a new beginning where you are independent but not unfair and secretive about things. All that contributes to the situation is chaos. You don’t feel good about something because of things that you or someone else did wrong in the past and how others reacted to it. They don’t live your life and they don’t know what it’s like for you. They can’t tell you anything you don’t already know before. Keep to yourself and what feels good to you and you’ll see the good that returns for doing that.

 

EARTH

Don’t sabotage yourself. If you’re feeling victimized you can neutralize it. Pull back and regroup yourself when you feel unstable. Give yourself happiness to get you back to your advantage point. You’re turning down offers that don’t feel good to you even if you can’t decide if that’s the best decision or not. Things are going good but feel stagnant because you still haven’t found ways to keep yourself happy on a consistent basis. Step 1, walk away from drama. Focus on your crafts. Offer your time and effort to yourself if they’re telling you they can’t be there for you like they said they could. They want to use their money on vices. Their lying ins’t going to keep getting slid past you. You want to feel good about the situation and like you can trust them, not like you can’t. They’re going to come out and say how they feel about this. No more efforts to what feels bad to you now. Be happy being independent. Don’t listen to others when it comes to your own creations. Everyone loves someone who doesn’t give up on them self. If they don’t love you for that, they’re a dream crusher, and they gotta go.

Second Week October 2018 Tarotscope

Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. You have a full natal chart, and energies can be switched. Apply it how it fits for you. This is a general, not personal reading. 

 

FIRE

It’s apparent you know the negative things and people that you need to let go of so you can focus on your money and healing. No more new beginnings till you’re feeling ready. Do you feel lighter after letting it go? You’re being guarded towards the person who called you out. Don’t try to apologize, they will not believe you. They think you’re a liar and they feel better off without you. You cut yourself off and feeling victimized now when they just don’t want to put up with your shit. You feel stuck and like you’ve had a shitty time because of your own actions. It is your responsibility to get yourself the help you need. It’s not working, never has, and isn’t fair to those who care about you, isn’t fair to yourself, and can’t keep going on like this. You think you’re fine and not the problem. Go ahead and wait for them to make a move, you won’t get far. They feel unburdened now by letting you go. Buh-bye. To get rid of the anxiety you feel now is take control of what you actually can and work more on yourself and your own finances. Get help with your illness and/or addictions. It’s the only way to get what you want.

 

 

AIR

They’re happy with you but they have disorders/ailments that require you to be extra careful with them and you need to stay away from toxic and secretive situations. Stop always trying to pick fights with the people you say you care about. They will walk away if you can’t show some commitment. You are caring about theme even though they might’ve hurt you making you feel like they weren’t trying as much as they could’ve to help a situation. If you make threats be prepared for them to call your bluff. They can be on their own. Someone did or said something fucked up and the other is willing to give it another chance but if time goes too long without the offender extending the olive branch then they’ll start to walk away. If the offender wants the other person confident and happy like they claim then they need to act like they mean it because the other person feels mind fucked. If they’re what you want, why are you waiting? Tomorrow isn’t promised. You will be surprised what’s on the other side of your fear if you speak up about your thoughts and emotions.

 

WATER

You don’t feel confident because you’re arrogantly being paranoid of everything and that’s because the role of being the over dramatic one to get noticed is slowly becoming no longer useful. That personality was learned and needed for the trauma you were in at the time but it’s served it’s purpose and time to retire it. It’s time to celebrate life now. You’ve been holding onto your pennies and people think you are holding back but you know the truth of it is you’ve been focusing more on the relationship than anything else and it was needed to go through all the internal work to get rid of some of the crippling anxiety you were experiencing. Now that you’ve shed that layer you can start brand new. Success starts with acknowledging the ways you’ve already won. Someone wants to believe it but just can’t right now. They’re struggling to stay balanced. Step 1: Don’t do things you know will fuck with your emotions. Step 2: Don’t do things you know will upset your Home. It won’t stay hidden, it won’t work out, they don’t deserve it. If you want it anyways that’s sad news for you because by giving into temptations you are missing the blessing in front of you. Stop being arrogant. Stop feeling so guarded with your feelings. Stop doing things that don’t make you feel good.

 

EARTH

You’re done feeling sad and stuck because of the people who didn’t want happiness with you before. You’ve decided the truth is you’re awesome and it’s time to enjoy life already. Anxiety will end when you stop making efforts and offers to what ins’t making you feel the best you. You let them know that you just don’t see anything good coming of it. They were too arrogant and the drama they caused is unneeded in your life. You struggle to walk away from things you know are bad for you because of the investments you’ve already put into it but if they can’t treat you correctly you’re halting movement forward. Things won’t continue until you feel stable, victorious, and you see they make the room for you to fit on front display in their life. Money and material possessions mean nothing to you if you’re not also being offered emotion behind it. Codependency and addictions are preventing you from moving forward so offer time and effort to other things that make you feel good and happy. Trying to control other people so you can be happy has never worked. Take a chance on yourself and do what’s fair for you, or stay emotional and stuck. Someone is fighting the truth about the spiritual lesson and blessing within this union. They were being closed off but quickly going to come in with an offer of commitment. They’re happy and know that it’s just fear telling them you wonder about being with others. If you’re settling or not getting what you want have the strength to stand up for yourself and say “I’m amazing and I can do this with or without you, the unstable unhappy home scene is over and done.” We’re coming out of that. Pull back and see how they react to you doing that. That’ll tell you what they’re really all about. Even if you have “nothing left” it’s not worth it to stay where you don’t feel genuinely cared about.

Tarotscope All Elements Last Weekend of September 2018

Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. You have a full natal chart, and energies can be vice versa for crossreaders.

 

FIRE

Don’t message anyone if you’re going to be a hypocrite about things. They feel fine without that and they are good on their own because the truth is they didn’t see it going very far with how unhappy you were anyways. The truth is the way you went about leaving a situation someone thought it was bullshit then found out they were right to think that. You wanted this new beginning and this person had the strength you didn’t to get things going. Go do what you want now and be happy without having to live your life as a lie.

 

AIR

Do you know what you want? If you don’t start noticing what’s been built for you and what’s growing with you they can be on their own believe it or not. If you want them you wouldn’t let them feel like you rather be elsewhere. When the negative vibes leave you will start to feel better. If you’re happier on your own then go be on your own. Not two,three,four-timing someone who is loyal to you. Things will get better when there aren’t so many people around who like drama. If they’re happy with that shit that’s fine but they have to take it somewhere else. They are trying to work their emotions or you are before they make a move and offer more. The worst thing they do is self sabotage, sometimes shitty people deserve a taste of their own medicine. Especially when they hurt others with their lies. Don’t be the liar.

 

 

WATER

You’re good on your own so if you know that, why are you not doing what’s responsible and honorable of you to do? You won’t be able to have long lasting calmness in your mind if you keep putting things off that you know are needing to be resolved and concluded. You can see that there was nothing you could do but find happiness on your own. Now you’re doing your own thing and making commitments to yourself. When you stop being greedy and hiding and do what you need to then things will improve for you in your life and your status in the community. You felt emotional before in response to the new opportunity but now see the success in the transition after things’ve calmed down and you’ve had time to reflect. By chance you’ll find out that not everyone wanted you to go but if things were going to stabilize the first thing was to let go of what was no longer aligning anymore. They weren’t cruel but you caused some rift in the situation and they quickly chose their well being over yours. Offering anything at this point is a drain for them that just makes them anxious, and they rather not be around that anymore. They had righteous power behind them to out the truth against dishonesty. That’s why what happened happened, that’s why you now feel relief, this is why you need to let it go and move on. Don’t offer more to what’s hurt you. Follow what you want for yourself now.

 

 

EARTH

It’s rough when you let go of what you once held dear or obligatory to your heart. You have more productive things to put your energy and focus on that will benefit you and bring you to yourself. You decided people will need to meet you 80% of the way with them being content and happy with them self before you consider any attention or effort is put into them from now on. You’re making things way tougher on yourself than you need to. What is meant for you will come naturally without restriction or hesitation. Your mind is jumbled currently. World upside down. Be happy and indulge in your arts and spirituality right now. Take care of the person most important in your life, you. You’re moving on slowly after realizing the truth about how there’s no commitment to you in this. Now you have no excuse to not work on your projects, and you can heal so you don’t get codependent again. You think they may or may not have other options but does it even matter? You don’t trust it, you don’t feel good about it, so take this new chapter as one where it starts off you secluding yourself and figuring things out. People won’t defend you if you act out or make them feel like they’re wasting their time and efforts on you. Someone may pretend to want to offer you something again but it’s only because they feel shitty so to make themselves feel better here they are back again to fuck with your head. The right people will offer you loyalty, love, and the world. Will support you and be there good and bad times. Be on your pursuit of happiness. Share your stories and wisdom. Good luck is on your way. Don’t let a manipulator push your buttons, distract you, and ruin your opportunities. Stay focused, and keep to yourself. Get your emotions in check. Get yourself together. Deceptive people are negative energies and you can’t be a part of it if you’re trying to evolve and grow. Use creative outlets and chances to experience and learn new things as a way to forget about the betrayals and pains. Stability, money, and finding a happy place to call home will follow you when you use Law of Attraction to realize you’re already abundant and good enough just the way you are. Committing to success is the first step to doing something about making your own dream come true. Don’t talk about it, just do the damn thing.

 

 

 

Full Moon Tarotscope All Elements September 26, 2018

Take what resonates for you. 

🙂

 

 

FIRE

You won’t feel confident within yourself till you can master your emotions and anger. You think committing isn’t worth the investment and that you’re going to be alot happier moving from this relationship to being independent. Just because it “didn’t work out” is no reason to do something stupid. Especially when this is what you actually wanted. You know it’s better judgement to not offer anything anymore and just walk away. Take what you have and go after what you’ve always wanted. That will stop your troubles. You really care about the new instead of the old burdens. You’re blocking them out. God saw what you wanted and saw you thought you didn’t have the power yourself to end it and move away on your own. You know you felt stuck in an unfair relationship, and now it’s over. You want to go where the wind blows, not to feel stuck. Go be happy and get control of yourself again.

 

 

WATER

You’re not so anxious when you’re living in your truth about how you wanted more of something. Doing things out of spite gets you nowhere. You like feeling like you can control others and their feelings but you need to be better than that and move away from it. Care what others will think and say and you will suffer. Walk away to find your happiness elsewhere and get the success. You saw a commitment to something wasn’t good for you and put you at a disadvantage. You need to offer it to just yourself. You create your own reality. Make sure the things you do that you think make you confident aren’t just in fact giving you a false sense of security and authority. Be strong for yourself, go within, and take care of you, not the the ones who make you feel replaceable.

 

 

AIR

They’re trying their hardest to believe you won’t leave them. Being greedy and then going to other options will get you bad karma. You’ve worked too hard to let some dumb shit get you down. You’re not letting assholes do nothing but offer negativity, if that’s what they do, they have to go. You’re not happy on your own or without this person in particular. So make sure not to do things to take what’s good for you for granted. Don’t do anything dumb like deal with toxic people and their toxic shit. You may be feeling left out by someone but they’re trying to work on their skills and improve stability within their emotions like you asked them to do. They don’t want to go and they want a happy home with you. Sometimes they are afraid to be broke and feel stuck. They’ve lost their freedom before and don’t want to go through that again. You’re deciding to only offer or accept offers that benefit you. Quickly become happy by not being guarded and offering your feelings to the one you know is always there for you.

 

 

EARTH

You have the strength to not put yourself in situations where you’ll be lied to or hurt and controlled so easily again. All the times you felt stuck due to someone else’s insecurities are over. Slowly you’ll come out of that negative outlook and with it will come an increase in money because you’ll be doing things of your passion with passion. Even if you don’t feel that confident yet you’ll feel happier from walking away from the things that drain you. Some people think you might be happier on your own. In the past you may have thought you were more confident but that was only because you didn’t have so much to lose. Helping others in times of pain and confusion will help you in return. You’ll be happier when you can get away from those who love to fight. Just because they’re feeling bad about them self and having other options doesn’t mean you need to feel fucked up about it. You’re strong enough to be above the arguing and pettiness. You’re over the fake relationships that make you feel like an option or not good enough and go for ones where you feel the loyalty and the peace of not dealing with cruel individuals anymore.

Mid September 2018 Tarotscope All Elements

Take what resonates. These are general.

🙂

 

 

FIRE

Do what makes you happy, oh wait, you don’t know what that is and won’t till you quit your addictions. You already know that your problems are due to your habits. You aren’t stable mentally, so that means when you do them it only aggravates your mania and depression. You can fight, run, hide, but your enemy is going wherever you go because the enemy is inside of yourself. The advice is obvious, do what makes you happy till you forget about wanting it again. You need help with this. You will struggle more than you need to if you try to do it on your own. Don’t be selfish either, the reason there’s an issue is because you’ve invested into the wrong things. Have faith in your recovery process. The person who’s done the most wrong here is the one who is always creating drama instead of answering questions. You need help to quit and you will feel much better afterwards. Going to your past is a trap that you are putting yourself into. You might think people are doing things wrong but your judgement is impaired and you can’t see clearly. Fighting with people who would do anything for you is probably not the smartest idea. It’s not working for you right? Stop fucking doing it.

 

 

AIR

You’re really irritated waiting and hoping people will want to meet up with you and you aren’t seeing that some bigger force is trying to keep you out of trouble and away from people who are no good for you. Do what feels right to you and turn your focus to your relationships at home. Your friends and coworkers are not long term and you know this. The reason things feel like a cycle repeating for you is because you are not choosing to be the Best you you can be. Open up. You have the strength in this bond to be able to do so. You want to be accepted for how you are so maybe you should do the same for them in return. You’re not happy and your problems are you focusing too much on luck to solve your problems instead of just committing to practically tackle them over time. They don’t want to keep being involved in your bullshit. You create your own problems. When you can admit you have a problem, you can ask for help and get it. You think eventually it’ll make you happy to have materialistic items quicker but all it’s doing is getting you colder in the relationship. In the past you used to be an honest person but you got caught up in the wrong crowd somewhere along the way. You’re not happy because your’e scared to have something good for once. It’s something you’ve never had and now that you’ve had it you’re afraid to lose it. You think you didn’t deserve something this good, so it’s scary. You feel stuck because you are investing into things rather than the one who you always wanted. You could be really happy if you’d just slow down and be you, the real you.

 

 

WATER

You had to go because you were immature, or will be. TOO. MUCH. DRAMA. You are not stable. You are probably really disassociative right now. You don’t want to pay up but it is the right thing to do. Thievery isn’t a cool or forgivable thing. Your cycle will continue to do this till you close it out. You can be happy and it’ll stop just stop giving into the wrong things and instead give to the right ones for you. You already know what you need to do. Don’t do anything that makes you feel bad or uncomfortable. You’re the one who has to live with it.

 

 

EARTH

We have free will to conform to things or not. Understand from a higher level of consciousness that you need to evaluate the situation and see what it means to you that you perceive things how you do…and why? If you feel like you’re investing too much into something that is not satisfying you why not focus on what you like to do then? You deserve to be happy and feel confident about it. You’ve been happy independently before. You’re not stable and fighting alot because you’re ignoring yourself. When you take the time to slow down, enjoy, appreciate, and be fair to yourself like you are to others, then things you thought that wouldn’t work out for you will. What you want you’ve been blocking from yourself but that’ll change. They don’t want you to leave, they just want you to look at other options to make you happy when they’re busy. Do whatever makes you feel good and confident within yourself, whatever it may be. Being unhappy isn’t really who you are, it’s just what you had to be according to the overbearing, negative, and toxic people in your past to keep you stuck. Arguing won’t grant you your wishes. You’ve invested alot under that face but it’s time to move on and get a new one. Be the rebel you are to anything that resembles the restrictions you once endured. Nothing or no one is worth losing yourself over again. If you’re feeling stuck get out of your head, stop being anxious, and realize you can have whatever you want. You can stop playing the victim role. It is also a form of control and manipulation to act that way, and you’re not like that so be careful to not do it. Whatever you’re still mourning over go within to receive the messages about how the denial of these offers to you were actually in your favor. You wouldn’t have been happy or stable in those places or as successful. You lack confidence because people who were miserable themselves wanted you to stay stuck with them and may only be coming around again to get you held back up. You aren’t allowing it to continue any farther. What you are going to do is stop feeling guilty or apologetic about being happy now. You’re not bound by this negative energy anymore and because you’re not going to deal with any funny business you can now feel at ease. You’re not going to keep fighting because you no longer feel such an urge to. When you can stop acting petty, you can have a good fortune and who you want to turn things around for you. If you expect it to be quick you’re going to get disappointed. Be happy not so much while focusing on what you can do for them  it instead yourself. Offers that seem too good to be true are. Take your time being picky through the options, and then when you got it you can lay your burdens down and walk away from them. Stop pursuing things that don’t make you happy . They love you. You love them. You don’t want to split, and they’re not betraying you. But you are not stable and you really need to make yourself happy because by you not you  are looking like the asshole here and that’s not the case. You’re scared to do your new thing even though it’s exactly the new challenge you need. Let go of who they made you be and edit yourself to your own preferences.

Beginning to Mid Month July 2018 Tarotscope

DISCLOSURE

These are general tarot readings for each element and are not personal, therefore, some of the messages may or may not resonate. Please take what does, and leave behind what isn’t meant for you 

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Beginning to Mid – July 2018 Beginning to Mid – July 2018

Fire
What may seem like unfortunate timing for something may actually be the best for the situation. It moves you forward and helps ease some of the conflicts you were having before. The realization hits you that your addictions are what are creating you instability and unhappiness at home.  You’re being offered an opportunity to put your addictions down but it upsets you because this seems to be the only thing that brings you happiness. You need to know that it’s a huge drain on your resources and keeps you stuck in a cycle. You may feel unable to do all the things that need to be done to fulfill someone and make things right with them. You feel guarded from the one you long for but aren’t feeling close to. Someone doesn’t feel secure anymore so they go to the grapevine to inform someone of their burden.  You think money is all that matters right now and you need to get out of that naive/greedy mentality. You are up at night and worrying during the day over the person who’s time you wasted. In the future a happy and stable home is possible. A new beginning is unblocked when a commitment to security was made over the unstable system that was once intact. you are lying to yourself and keeping yourself stuck if you think you don’t have addictions. You can see being happy where you are after you are away from certain people.  For a happy relationship of any kind, you must be working on self stability and not being petty or weak.

Air
You feel disadvantaged due to someone picking relationships over what you had together. However they don’t even value those relationships either so is that really someone you want around anyways? This wasn’t fulfilling you and you decided you didn’t want to be anxious over it anymore. You feel jilted by someone throwing away a long term investment over something trivial in comparison to other things you’ve been through. You took the time to listen to someone who is decisive, about no bullshit, reliable, and fair. They said the unstable people ought to go if a new cycle is to start. The old ways of excessive indulgences is no longer because things weren’t being handled correctly.  You are being guarded from your partner even though you are looking at them positively. You’re worried that the new beginning will turn into a regret. In the past you’ve been rejected and left behind but seeing things the same way now isn’t the right judgement call. Offer more than just sex and secrets. If you don’t want fights or distance learn patience with them overcoming their burdens that they carry. Commitment is here they just don’t see that it’s real yet. They’re still waiting for it to go bad. Things will change now. The situation was seen negative but be strong and know that wasn’t going to be a stable foundation to build a future on anyways. Now you can see who’s really there for you and who isn’t. Happiness in the home will come when things move forward with changes.  Someone has tried starting a rumor that your money is being spent elsewhere. Luckily the person who matters knows the truth about why it seems like there’s not alot of money.

Water
Someone saw that you weren’t bringing stability and peace to a home and said enough with the drama and drugs. You and this other person think the reason you are going is because of an evil lying person who fakes being sick or disordered. When you can put down your burden of addictions though then you will see that your addictions stood in the way of you joining in the new beginning. You didn’t add value of peace to the home and they didn’t want you to leave but no one felt good with you there anymore…selfish and with your head up your ass. This person doesn’t tolerate bullshit and advised that immaturity doesn’t offer opportunity or stability. You think you can convince them that this can work out but your efforts would be better spent working on yourself and what you can do to make yourself happy elsewhere. The truth is you were arrogant and wrong to act the way you did. You don’t even have enough to start a new beginning yet instead of being independent you chose relationship/sex and it’s led you to this. Any offers against this commitment won’t work like they did in the past. They’re happier now being strong and not doing things that would jeopardize their relationship. The world is waiting to offer you something good if you’d put down your vices and get out of your negative head space.  Let go of your addictions, be happy. Even if you don’t know where you’re going know that if you aren’t guarded things will happen for you.

Earth
You’re moving on from people who make you anxious. You are prioritizing stability and balance. Someone will block you and that is because they’re weak but by them starting this shift now things are coming out that show how much of an enemy they are. Some may not want to let it go but give them time they’ll get over it. Just make sure they don’t turn to vices to cope, including watching yourself. You saw no happy home here if the past kept continuing. You offered your stability and reliability to accommodate them if they helped you with this.  Know you make them happy and that you helped them see that these people weren’t worth anymore investment. They see you’re not about the bullshit and can offer things instead of being stuck doing the same things. They are paranoid of people right now and so they’re trying to put you in the same self sabotaging mentality. You don’t want more conflict but you aren’t sure if you want to keep offering if it turns out what others are saying is true about your partner you are ready to move on if you need to.  A new beginning seems burdensome and like it’s unfairly taking forever to happen but you know you need to be in control of your emotions to deal with them not being able to handle theirs at this moment. Nothing is going on but you feel guarded in relationships and like you always need to be on the defense. You struggle with feeling secure and mature enough for a relationship right now. You know this disorder/issue you are struggling with makes relationships difficult at times. You’ll be happy letting them be them and letting go of worrying about their habits and issues. Do you while still doing what’s right for the commitment. You can come out of your shell and be happy and in love. When people leave that’s when the unhappiness and lying and drama stops. That’s when worrying about what’s yours and secure and stable ends. Don’t offer shit if you aren’t feeling abundant enough or like it’ll would be reciprocated. Don’t offer anything to those who think they can overpower you or take advantage of you. Move past those who are miserable and insecure. Soon your anxiety will cease and you’ll be balanced again and at peace.

Tarotscope Mid June 2018

DISCLOSURE

These are general tarot readings for each element and are not personal, therefore, some of the messages may or may not resonate. Please take what does, and leave behind what isn’t meant for you 

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Fire

It’d pay you well to go within yourself and stop doing the things you know are not right. You’re at a disadvantage with the relationship you want to pursue because they see you as an enemy. They see you as someone who is emotionally manipulative and can’t offer real commitment to them. You can’t be a control freak and expect to have the type of partner you also want. There has to be compromise. If you want to be able to do the things you want, you’re going to have to be okay with them doing the same things. Things weren’t fair before with this person because you were happier not have a new beginning and acting guarded. You wanted it to stay where it was because you knew that when it would go forward the truth would cause it to stop. They didn’t want the drama so they moved forward instead of moping about it because they knew they are better off. They are able to fulfill themselves emotionally now. A new beginning can’t start till you finalize a separation with someone from the past. Addictions, trials, and third party situations plague this repeated heart breaking cycle. You don’t take accountability for your own actions and actually do anything about it so until you do you can’t end your cycle to move forward. In the past you may have been unhappy with the results you were seeing but soon you realize there’s something to be gained from this. When you realize the lessons you gained and how it improved your work and your character you can’t lay down the burdens of the opportunities that were missed and move forward.

Air

A new beginning couldn’t start quickly because the community kept creating anxious thoughts every time they saw someone was getting out of anxiety. They gained control of their thoughts again and are trying for the new beginning. They are offering abundance and happiness from here on out. They don’t like conflict and drama or fighting. They understand how to defend themselves and others though when they feel things are unfair because of controlling people they’ve dealt with before. No one is trying to leave or move. Strength needs to be used to get balance during this time. Offer yourself more. You’ve been trying to seem like it’s all together but things haven’t been as honest as they should be. These issues need to be ended if you want to have a future with this person. You can’t blame them for how they feel in regards to this when things are not honest and that’s what they were worried of in the first place. You want someone to believe that you just have extra love to give but they aren’t falling for it. Your options game is not going to continue. Stop talking to or about things/people from the past who didn’t work out or do anything for you. Good fortune follows you when you focus on happiness in your relationship and not what others think about you two.

Water

When you make the decision to turn down the things which keep you chained to an unhappy lifestyle, feeling, or situation, that’s when success will take off. The work you put in is not at it’s full potential because you’re not as present as you need to be. You let your doubts cloud your judgement as well. You can’t have a new beginning if you keep choosing to argue or shut down. Focus on controlling your words and actions more when you are in a mood. It’s not being fake to have a filter. It’s coming off like a nice guy instead of a douche. When you have the strength to tame yourself and not be dramatic or instigate that’s when a new phase can begin. You want to move and you feel stuck but that’s because you’re in your head upset about having to do things. Offer to help people instead of thinking they should just be discarded and replaced. You feel happier when you’re independent enough to control yourself and can still help them go through their flashbacks. You get fulfillment from one another and you want to see it pay off. Be careful to not indulge too much in things you know aren’t good for you. For success in your relationships you need to practice optimism and balance yourself out. You haven’t been fair in the past and now you are seeming to be a jerk. It’s a decision how you treat yourself and others.

Earth

You’re stuck unable to accept an offer because you were not forgetting about the things some abusive controlling person used to say. When you stop believing things that someone who just wanted to inflict pain on you says you can start focusing on your goals again. Make the decision to transform pain into beauty to create abundance. You will be happy being in your relationship when you put your burdens down and see the world without a jaded view. Be you, and the fights will lessen in intensity and consistency. You are so committed to the idea that things will go wrong you have built up a negative energy momentum in your life. Try changing your perception on reality despite your feelings. When you stop being petty and you start being vulnerable things will move quickly for you. You think you can’t get anywhere because you’re being greedy by not allowing yourself success. You’re unhappy doing things that don’t feel right to you so do the things that make you happy and feel right to you. The way to your happiness and ultimate power is by listening to your intuition and following it. Quickly you will realize all the things you thought you couldn’t see have been right there all along. You see now how much you have to offer, even if it took you a while to see it. You have enough behind you now though that you feel content and confident in who you are. You feel more balanced and like you can go out there feeling victorious. That through all that adversity you can still come out of it and people tried their hardest to stop you, the still couldn’t. Remember your power. Remember you’re a bad ass.

Mid-May 2018 Tarotscope

DISCLOSURE

These are general tarot readings for each zodiac sign and are not personal, therefore, some of the messages may or may not resonate. Please take what does, and leave behind what isn’t meant for you. ❤

 

 

Aries

It’s bad judgement to think to get out of your anxiety that you’re not supposed to find someone new but instead go back to the old. Stick to yourself to be at an advantage. On your own you’re less anxious and more in control of your emotions. No drama, but you want to try to offer a new beginning anyways but there’d be no commitment with this person. They don’t want it. It’s not going to be fulfilling and you’ll be happier when you accept it is not worth the pain. There’s more options, and there’s nothing left to revive. Bad karma will come your way if you try to force the situation to go differently than the forces want. By not taking action to heal yourself and instead covering your wounds with vices you’ve left things for granted. You thought there were better things out there, just to turn around and be upset over the things you played a part in. In the past you would turn to this when you couldn’t make a decision but it isn’t helping you live your life the best way and leading you to a problem. You need a new beginning. You think you don’t have the strength or stability but you’ll be successful if you are disciplined and work hard. You stop feeling fucked over when you stop running and hiding from your mediocrity and offer what you’re really worth to the world.

 

Taurus

Your vices cause you to feel like you’re lacking in life but you have the power to change that and start a new phase in your life. You may be experiencing mental issues or blockages but that doesn’t’ change the fact that this person is still not stable or always fair to you. Don’t accept an offer if you think for a second that a part of you in the future might wish that you made a different decision in this scenario. If future you could come back in time, would you still need proof before making a decision? Try to do well on your own and watch how quickly they get upset and stop offering you things. Good luck will come when you put your extra time and money into creative hobbies and less of your addictions. If you feel unstable, in your head, not abundant, then stop dealing with any relationships where they are just wanting drama. Focus on bettering yourself.

 

Gemini

You need to get balance and focus on your work. Don’t talk to people who are manipulating you or trying to. You will be happy going within and caring for yourself before others. By not being dramatic and negative it makes manipulators show their true colors. If there’s a doubt in a union don’t kid yourself thinking it’ll get better. Success will not come to you if you keep repeating your mistakes. The fulfillment you are looking for is found inside of you.

 

Cancer

You’re surprised to find that by not doing much with the outside world you’ve gotten better judgement on a partnership potential where before you felt there were better options. You’ve been quick to cut people off or get emotional when they try to give you constructive criticism but it would benefit you to listen. You’ve been in your head and keep yourself in that place but you already know that. You don’t want to fight or have to walk away from a union that currently fulfills you. Balance will come and make a happy home when addictions aren’t the priority. You’re feeling like you’re lacking and not as abundant as you’d like has messed with your emotions and you’ve been keeping it under wraps. You know it puts you at an advantage during the rough times in your home. You also know that’s the only energy that’ll move things forward. Realize you can transcend your pain into beauty, your mistakes can teach others. You can offer that and it’ll bring you balance. Go within, move past your ego and doubts, and ask yourself what brings you the most happiness? As long as you repeat past mistakes nothing will change for the better.

 

Leo

You’ve been in your head about a third option but went within and realized which one is a burden on you. Trying to avoid conflict is putting you at a disadvantage. You think you’re in control and that’s going to get you hurt. Get out of anxious nights by turning down the offers that you know won’t bring you a happy life. Your happiness is up to you making the right choices or not. Only you can control what you accept. You have the power to over come shortcomings in your commitments. Leaving behind anything that you know isn’t in your best interest will bring you success and happiness. Slow down, stop fighting, put effort and passion back into it. If you’re guarded you will stay stuck.

 

Virgo

It’s taken strength to get here but you’re quickly seeing offers being presented to you for the hard work you’ve been putting in. You are feeling sorry for yourself and putting yourself in a lack of abundance mindset. Fix that by giving to others so you can see how much you can go without and still be comfortable. You’re moving past anything that brings you unhappiness. Changing into a new cycle after being done with unfair situations. It’s better to be happy on your own than trying to be happy with those who make you feel like you have to be guarded all the time. Turn down any offers when you know that person will just create issues later down the road for the partnership. You will be ecstatic if you take charge and go after what you thought wasn’t possible before in the past. Block anyone who tries to get in the way. You do not deserve that anxiety.

 

Libra

In the past you met someone who was emotional but owned it. Independent. Due to not sacrificing something though dishonesty is going on and a new beginning can’t happen. Thinking you can control this person will only put you at a disadvantage with them and get you blocked out. Only being open and balanced will bring the new beginning. Drama in the partnership will trigger their issues to thinking you rather have something else and you’ll abandon them. Put those burdens down by using your better discernment and protecting them from your own troubles. Your hard work is showing to pay off and the happiness is beaming out when presented with this offer. Offering commitment/partnership will create success for you. Happiness once you make the decision to make the offer. You don’t have the funds to start your own path but that’s what you’re slowly moving towards. Stop worrying about your status in society.

 

Scorpio

It’s good judgement involved to end a partnership and go within yourself for temporary rest and isolation. Blocking out influences that want to pressure you. The truth is you don’t feel stable at the moment. A person is being entitled and burdensome causing you unhappiness. Be gracious and don’t make it dramatic. Slowly you realized this person tries to be manipulative. You want to move forward past what hasn’t worked out. Work, community, and partnerships all seem to be going well but you’re not completely content. You expect to get over this quickly but it’ll take patience, persistence, awareness, and facing your issues to get over it. Bad fortune comes when you don’t do enough quickly enough and think you have all the time in the world it’ll take for you to decide what you want to do. You’d do well to show more respect to others. You’ve decided to stick this out despite them continuously turning it down. Not feeling confident enough in yourself is causing your issues.

 

Sagittarius

Immaturity may have caused someone to not feel as powerful or confident as they once did due to some unfavorable event. You get really happy when independence and financial security is evident for you and someone you’re involved with. Work has been benefiting for you the more you don’t argue or participate in drama. Things may be moving slow for you at the moment but that’s to eliminate future problems and get out of where you are unhappy at now. Options may seem great but it’s keeping you stuck without ending something and leveling up. To make them feel better though you may have to take one for the team and pay for their way to move forward. You get rid of burdens when you decide to go after what you want. Go forward not offering your emotions as it’ll help you get through it easier. In the past you may have thought something wouldn’t have offered you what it did but by staying in and not focusing on much else you’ve gained wealth enough you feel a little more balanced. Your enemy is your addictions. All that hard work and money needs to go to your new beginning not that which keeps you bound. Commit to doing what makes you a Boss.

 

Capricorn

Worrying too much about others and how to please them instead of yourself is creating the lack of success feeling. Be you. What they said before doesn’t and won’t ever matter unless you choose to let it matter. Alot of trauma and unfair situations have caused mental wounds and cause you to be guarded. Patience and faith will help you. You’re in your head about an offer you’ve been receiving. You’re going to be extremely happy once justice and karma pay you, putting you in a powerful position. You have good intuition and moving past issues you had with being argumentative, because you realize it’s saboteur behavior. You’re more than happy to walk away from someone who lies and manipulates. They can offer money and commitment but there’s no benefiting new beginnings as long as they are bent on staying manipulative and stuck in their old ways. Stare too hard and long wondering why you aren’t as pleased as you expected to be by now and you might lose the things you’re taking for granted. Slow down, focus on offering yourself the best you can without excuses. You can go out without participating in things you don’t like or know are toxic for you. By good judgement and not being dramatic you’ll be offered money for your position in charge which in the past you didn’t think would happen. You haven’t been as profitable as you’d maybe preferred but that cycle is ending. You become happy after not focusing on a relationship before looking to the things you can do to bring yourself balance and confidence. You haven’t felt very abundant or confident but something will happen to end your anxious thoughts and bring you happiness, after a trip or some forward movement happens. The objective is to work towards better communication and less arguing.

 

Aquarius

A new beginning wasn’t moving forward with a partner because someone was trying too hard to be a player and be unfair and controlling. You are either being let go from something or letting them go. It’ll cause you to feel stuck, anxious, guarded, argumentative, and like you’re not progressing. To be free of guilt you need to be happy with that person in your past moving on and doing well, or atleast accept it. Do not try to manipulate this person with money because they’re not having it. They are happy without you. This was imbalanced because someone was being greedy. They are moving on to something that fulfills them.

 

 

Pisces

Until someone can get balance within their abandonment feelings, insecurities, and past regrets, no new offers will ensue. Your addictions are a burden on you and you should better invest the money into yourself. You can’t see a new beginning without drama because you get petty and caught up in it. This person is beautiful, abundant, and successful, and wants to succeed. They don’t want to deal with situations or people who make them feel like they have to be guarded. Worry about yourself, not what this other person is doing. They’re tired of the lying, the manipulation, the illegal activities, and are just unhappy so they are declining the offer. Someone is paying too much attention to other options anyways and wasting their time.