Like it’s all been an endurance test,
seeing how long I can consecutively be my best.
Down and out,
always on the wire,
they think they can fuckin’ snuff out my fire.
They hire those liars to try and put a collar on me,
they don’t want me free.
Soon they’ll see you can’t
All my life I’ve struggled to free myself of all my adversities,
and with little – to – no help.
Struggle I did,
yeah the struggle was real.
I went too far,
shit got way too real.
Lived in fear,
I had to fight
to live every fuckin’
day of my life.
I loved real hard,
I worked too much,
I sacrificed my all,
and all for what?
To be alone?
To internally bleed?
To feel like my all was never enough
for anyone but me?
But then I began to realize,
through smokin’ weed and openin’ up all 3 of my eyes,
that’s the core purpose for you and I.
Be our all, and be all that we need,
look inside and not external,
can you feel and see the eternal inferno?
This ain’t DiGiorno,
this is deliverance
from your mental eternal to your eternal bliss.
All those trivial problems you can kiss goodbye.
No need to keep holding on and wasting another tear to cry.
Look to the sky,
that’s whats real.
When you’re feeling panicked and consumed with fear,
take a deep breathe,
close your 2 eyes,
give yourself affirmations,
you’ll see why.
Act as if, and actions will follow.
Soon you’ll see the promises are not hollow.
The truth really isn’t that hard of a pill to swallow,
the ego is just stubborn and never wants to follow.
We gotta find a balance, between you and me,
between us and we,
somewhere in the middle,
somewhere in between.
Meet me half way,
in the night or the day,
clear skies or rain,
let me wrack your uncharted brain.
We’ll get through the pain and can start fresh again.
more room for a heart in your tin.
I used to be “There”,
back when I didn’t care,
but once I had the epiphany about “Destiny”
and how”I am”and how now I see “what will be”
now that I’m “Here”,
and well my dear I’d like to be clear,
I may not tell you always what you want to hear,
but I’m just doing my best to help you heal and rest.
Pass the Test,
enjoy your Nest.
There’s always a reward after you’ve successfully completed a Quest.
This is my nutshell,
I present it to you.
Take the guidance and make it abundance for you too.
Experience may make a wonderful teacher,
but are you here to waste time
or are you here to be a
If you want the strategy here’s the guide,
it ain’t cheating if you’re not hacking the code to get ahead,
your efforts you’re not hiding.
Inside you’ll find where you can confide.
That’s where you can bloom,
that’s how you become bonafide.
It’s important to do what feels natural for you right now. This may mean what seems like a conflicting stance on something currently happening may be something that’s required soon. Have faith things will work out. You’re in full control of how you choose to feel. Make your choices and watch the good things flow to you.
Whatever was unfair will be made right. Be open about how you feel so you can process it and move forward. When you get control of your feelings you’ll be at an advantage with those who aren’t. You can’t take care of anything else if you’re in your head and not taking care of yourself first.
These circumstances show you what you truly value. Don’t continue the things that aren’t reciprocal to you. It’s showing you where you’re being drained from. Invest in yourself and let those who get upset by it go. If they were really trying to keep you around they’d offer better incentives and attitude and stick to it. Not still be on the same bullshit. Focus on yourself, not the controlling, manipulative, and weak people who can’t treat you correctly. You’ve stressed yourself out long enough in regards to this situation in which you were treated as less than.
You’re getting balanced and going after what you want for yourself. You will quit blaming yourself when you realize they don’t care like you do because of their own unresolved issues, which they project on you. You want it all or nothing at all. When you’re strong and resilient, you get rewarded for passing the test.
Find your happy place. If you’re worried, cast them into a prayer. The universe is waiting for you to have faith again. When you go internal instead of focusing on the external, things change tremendously. What was once a strain becomes something welcomed.
Honey vs. Vinegar. Signs are everywhere of inevitable change. Don’t fall for the tricks. Meditate. Love yourself. Make the changes you’ve been ignoring. Stop limiting and confining yourself to anyone else’s expectations of you. They don’t know you like you know you, and you’ve outgrown it.
You have a right to be angry that you were held back unnecessarily, but don’t focus on staying in that energy because it will block you from your deserved abundance. Learn the lessons and let it go. Stop revisiting the things you already know. See it for the toxicity it was and purge it out.
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♡ xo ♡
you said you hated my face
you said my food looked like shit,
but i could already tell from your personality if those things were true your mouth would’ve already quit.
days came to pass,
your moods always different.
some pleasant and sweet,
some short with sass,
never the less you were heaven – sent.
we related with alot, more than I could with most.
you wondered why I was so hard on you during work,
and afterwards more gentle and maternal, letting some things coast.
in you I saw a younger me,
back a bit ago when I started being a moody teen.
who was different and all my life verified that,
I usually felt alone, and like no one really had my back.
We shared contact info and I let you know
anytime your mom can’t be around and you don’t wanna be alone, Im a call or text away and with me is always somewhere you can call a second home.
need food? let’s eat
something dirty? come do some laundry.
want a ride home instead of a walk?
you never really accepted my offers, but you started to smile more around me, and hugs were now offered!
when you heard about my ex, you told me you’ll kill him,
when I quit my job and had to leave, there already was some grief.
I’m glad we kept in touch and grew our friendship more.
even after you found out about my past and job you still never called me a whore.
you were always there to talk with me, about the philosophical sides to this reality.
and how we are labeled as strange and abnormal, when we’re the ones aware of what’s surrounding “the Formal”
you’re not the first of one of my close friends to die, but it still hits me hard every time.
seems like some fucked up kind of joke, that the ones who can see the real me always disappear and go ghost.
but it is what it is,
I know you’re moving on and to you i toast,
Rayvon, you’re an incredible being, and your warm greeting and hug is one of the things I’m looking forward to the most.
till then I’ll send you good vibes when I see your signs, and make sure you’re there waiting for me when I catch up with you on the flipside!
Some key points from the book mixed with commentary of my own to create a complete lesson for you.
“The Magic Path of Intuition”
Prayer is calling God, and intuition is God calling you. When you are free of unrepented sins and resentment and you make a request per prayer and then immediately act as if it is already so. At night tell yourself in the morning you will know just what to do. Which cup will you fill daily with your energy: Hope, ideas, and love? Or fear, misery, and worries? Pains and ailments can be stress physically manifesting in your life. Ask for forgiveness and a chance to react more positively. Mind matters, mentality manifests.
Golden Rule of the Boomerang – Treat others how you want to be treated because it will come back to you. Knowledge is power and with power comes responsibility. With the long road of experience to come, learn the lesson quickly by detaching so you can spiritually evolve and move forward quicker. The more mental processing you do the slower the progress will be. Forgive everyone and everything to neutralize it all. Be the alchemist. Transform. Pray for all as they if they are yourself. Gratitude – increase. Complaint – decrease. If one door closes another always opens, trust in God to always supply you with what you need. Buy with future intentions within moderation. Give away what makes you feel bad or don’t need or use anymore. If you don’t appreciate God’s blessings as they are at face value, and instead worry you will lose it, surely you will. Trust that what’s meant for you will be yours. Do not say what you do not want. Words are not empty, null, or void. Arkashic Records are eternal. They justify or condemn you. Count your blessings, mind your manners, careful of your words. Faith bears fruit. What your mind can see and believe it can achieve. Nothing is too good to be true.
Be mindful of the contents you consume. Magic is real, all you have to do is have faith and trust. The more you pity yourself the more things will go wrong for you. By denying yourself of things your intuition wants you are hurting your flow of abundance. When you feel bad energetically change your vibration. Start moving or get new environment around to change your frequency. I live on God’s time. I go with the flow trusting it will benefit me the best. Faith is simply knowing God can do it.
11:1 – Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Your experiences are your own creations. Your intentions behind words and actions create your reality. Do everything with good motive and don’t worry about the bad people, God has your back. Little beginnings have big endings. Organization and cleanliness is good for Feng Shui, hoarding is not. Anything that happens with you in a situation you win. Don’t rush things and they will come sooner. Offer to God your glory and trust what comes is for you, whatever it may be. (You could be really surprised)
Learn to say, “I should’ve been angry/upset but I wasn’t.” The most expensive thing you can do is ignore a hunch. If you give negativity attention those demons/aliens will camp out in your brain. When things aren’t working, give it a break then let it resolve itself. Don’t resist and resent, unless you want to deal with regulations. Stop worrying about time and meeting expectations. Speak the word, follow your instincts. Dig your ditches. All things say the same, let God do it.
Trusting God needs to be a habit. Let spirit fuel you. Blessed by God the ground you walk on is holy and all you desire becomes so. Sometimes you learn things later because God’s time has a bigger purpose than what it would be on your own time. You are who you are now only because of where you were before. Like a power switch, you need to turn it on to access it’s energy. Prayer is turning on God’s grace and abundance. Desires are your necessaries for your path. Give things to God’s influence and watch it happen.
Don’t ask for your desires but ask for God’s desires for you since God knows best, and will not give you something that will hurt you or that you will regret.