7.29.2019 – 3 – create the new you now

The new “you” you would like to be more gentle with others.

It’s not boring to take care of yourself and those closest to you. Your base beliefs may need evaluated.

Need to fulfill your own wishes and fix insecurities. need to make confidence a part of self. feeling bad about not having sex together, a friendship with someone needs to end. Let go of concerns about what others think. Stop holding onto old ways of living, being, behaving from others, they are holding you back. do not worry about if they are embarassed or angry, they are irrelevant. let it go. let them go.

Stop relying on others. Be strong and be selfless to your higher self (if you can’t claim being “selfish”)

You know how to be savvy and patient to get what you want, using all resources to your benefit in acquiring what you want.

Stop caring about what others think about how you go about your life and the way you get things you need and want. You are a person of good judgement and moral character, you do what you need to do to take care of yourself and those closest to you.

Don’t harm yourself to please others. You don’t have to be obedient to people who you know aren’t good to you or doing what they need to do in return for your efforts.

Trying to get out of negative cycles and transition into a different state to escape it.

The worst that can happen if found out doesn’t even matter, because those people are not going to get you where you need to be, YOU ARE.

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RAVE ON

you said you hated my face

you said my food looked like shit,

but i could already tell from your personality if those things were true your mouth would’ve already quit.

days came to pass,

your moods always different.

some pleasant and sweet,

some short with sass,

never the less you were heaven – sent.

we related with alot, more than I could with most.

you wondered why I was so hard on you during work,

and afterwards more gentle and maternal, letting some things coast.

in you I saw a younger me,

back a bit ago when I started being a moody teen.

who was different and all my life verified that,

I usually felt alone, and like no one really had my back.

We shared contact info and I let you know

anytime your mom can’t be around and you don’t wanna be alone, Im a call or text away and with me is always somewhere you can call a second home.

need food? let’s eat

something dirty? come do some laundry.

want a ride home instead of a walk?

you never really accepted my offers, but you started to smile more around me, and hugs were now offered!

when you heard about my ex, you told me you’ll kill him,

when I quit my job and had to leave, there already was some grief.

I’m glad we kept in touch and grew our friendship more.

even after you found out about my past and job you still never called me a whore.

you were always there to talk with me, about the philosophical sides to this reality.

and how we are labeled as strange and abnormal, when we’re the ones aware of what’s surrounding “the Formal”

you’re not the first of one of my close friends to die, but it still hits me hard every time.

seems like some fucked up kind of joke, that the ones who can see the real me always disappear and go ghost.

but it is what it is,

I know you’re moving on and to you i toast,

Rayvon, you’re an incredible being, and your warm greeting and hug is one of the things I’m looking forward to the most.

till then I’ll send you good vibes when I see your signs, and make sure you’re there waiting for me when I catch up with you on the flipside!

xoxo

Lesson-key 1 “The Magic Path of Intuition”

Some key points from the book mixed with commentary of my own to create a complete lesson for you.

The Magic Path of Intuition

Prayer is calling God, and intuition is God calling you. When you are free of unrepented sins and resentment and you make a request per prayer and then immediately act as if it is already so. At night tell yourself in the morning you will know just what to do. Which cup will you fill daily with your energy: Hope, ideas, and love? Or fear, misery, and worries? Pains and ailments can be stress physically manifesting in your life. Ask for forgiveness and a chance to react more positively. Mind matters, mentality manifests.

Golden Rule of the Boomerang – Treat others how you want to be treated because it will come back to you. Knowledge is power and with power comes responsibility. With the long road of experience to come, learn the lesson quickly by detaching so you can spiritually evolve and move forward quicker. The more mental processing you do the slower the progress will be. Forgive everyone and everything to neutralize it all. Be the alchemist. Transform. Pray for all as they if they are yourself. Gratitude – increase. Complaint – decrease. If one door closes another always opens, trust in God to always supply you with what you need. Buy with future intentions within moderation. Give away what makes you feel bad or don’t need or use anymore. If you don’t appreciate God’s blessings as they are at face value, and instead worry you will lose it, surely you will. Trust that what’s meant for you will be yours. Do not say what you do not want. Words are not empty, null, or void. Arkashic Records are eternal. They justify or condemn you. Count your blessings, mind your manners, careful of your words. Faith bears fruit. What your mind can see and believe it can achieve. Nothing is too good to be true.

Be mindful of the contents you consume. Magic is real, all you have to do is have faith and trust. The more you pity yourself the more things will go wrong for you. By denying yourself of things your intuition wants you are hurting your flow of abundance. When you feel bad energetically change your vibration. Start moving or get new environment around to change your frequency. I live on God’s time. I go with the flow trusting it will benefit me the best. Faith is simply knowing God can do it.

11:1 – Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Your experiences are your own creations. Your intentions behind words and actions create your reality. Do everything with good motive and don’t worry about the bad people, God has your back. Little beginnings have big endings. Organization and cleanliness is good for Feng Shui, hoarding is not. Anything that happens with you in a situation you win. Don’t rush things and they will come sooner. Offer to God your glory and trust what comes is for you, whatever it may be. (You could be really surprised)

Learn to say, “I should’ve been angry/upset but I wasn’t.” The most expensive thing you can do is ignore a hunch. If you give negativity attention those demons/aliens will camp out in your brain. When things aren’t working, give it a break then let it resolve itself. Don’t resist and resent, unless you want to deal with regulations. Stop worrying about time and meeting expectations. Speak the word, follow your instincts. Dig your ditches. All things say the same, let God do it.

Trusting God needs to be a habit. Let spirit fuel you. Blessed by God the ground you walk on is holy and all you desire becomes so. Sometimes you learn things later because God’s time has a bigger purpose than what it would be on your own time. You are who you are now only because of where you were before. Like a power switch, you need to turn it on to access it’s energy. Prayer is turning on God’s grace and abundance. Desires are your necessaries for your path. Give things to God’s influence and watch it happen.

Don’t ask for your desires but ask for God’s desires for you since God knows best, and will not give you something that will hurt you or that you will regret.

Mid-November 2018 Guidance Message

This is a collective intuitive channeled message and tarot energy reading. Take what resonates for you and apply as it fits in your life. 

 

You’re attached to being codependent to an arrogant lying asshole who tries to control your life. You can come out of that as soon as you decide you’re done limiting yourself. Be fair. If someone can’t afford to do something don’t ask them to anyways just to appease you. If one person is doing better than the other you don’t need to hide it from the other but you don’t need to gloat about it either. Someone is trying to be there for you but you’re turning it down to offer your energy to feeling brokenhearted. Get a grip. Turn to creating something or getting spiritual to deal with your stress. You  need to be in control of your own life if you don’t want to be mind fucked. Stop mourning things that can’t be changed. You can do better. If you’re trying to have a new beginning, don’t let some sleazeball come in and try to screw that up for you. You’re the one who’s keeping you stuck. Be still. Detach. What would you want to do with your life if you had no worries? Ah, there it is. You don’t even believe that would ever be possible. You can be happy though and you know what it starts with? It starts with you. You divorcing the lies you’ve told yourself and others and marrying the truth…everything you’ve gone through, done, given, every heart break and loss, they have been the moments that formed and made you into who you are as a person today. You have a big block in relationships due to the fact you take others’ words and actions as a personal reflection of you when it’s actually a reflection of them. You need to know that not feeling enough, the feeling of being stuck, the drama, feeling hopeless, deserving of an unhappy home, it’s all motivated by the devil. You have to be fair and good to yourself and protect yourself from that kind of energy. Be committed to a new good vibe beginning, only dealing with things and people that allow you to grow and be in your zone. Your peace isn’t worth compromising for someone else’s entertainment or lack of dealing with their own problems.

First Week of November 2018 Guidance Message

This is a collective intuitive channeled message and tarot energy reading. Take what resonates for you and apply as it fits in your life. 

 

You go through the hard times so you can appreciate them when they’re good. You struggle so later you’re better prepared when it really matters for you or for someone else you come across. Speaking of someone else, you can learn lessons from them if you can hear them out about their experiences rather than you having to go through it yourself first. Everything happens for a reason. It’s not about where you been or where you are but where you’re going. Look back then till now, see how far you’ve come? Now imagine the changes that are before you if you act now. If things haven’t changed much, then this is your wake up call too. It’s your perception how you take things. Think about alternative ways to respond to people rather than react. This will be a good first step into seeing changes you would prefer. When you’re getting close to giving up hope, or when things finally work out for you, lean on your faith and thank the lord for what you have been blessed with. An awareness to how your primal energy is being used may be needed at this time. Refrain from excessive pleasure of the body to strengthen the spirituality in you. Use that energy to progress yourself forward. If anything is of superficial nature or a substitution for a real thing, that will drain you. You need a beneficial reciprocation in anything for it to be a good and healthy bond. If not, you are depleting and cheating yourself and your partner if you have one of good life force that can be used to create progression in your life. There are more productive things to use that energy for, like manifesting what you want in your life. “Once a ________ always a ________” statements like this aren’t true. People can change for the better. Yes, even yourself. Commitment is here if you’d just stop trying to relive the past over and over long enough to see that they’ve been there waiting for you. You’ll get news of an unfortunate event but will be compensated for it. This has been a long time coming. Even if it doesn’t feel right be sure to stay where you’re at for this time. This will bring in the new offer if you’re silent and still there. It’s not that you want to go, but you are tired of feeling mistreatment and misunderstood. You deserve more and expect more and the truth is you can have whatever you want so why should you put up with it? You’re getting over the fact that they seem unhappy with you no matter what you do and you’re over it because you can get that anywhere. Do not join in the negative mindset. It’s a sad story but your life has been hard enough without all this in it. Those times in your life are over. Now it’s about doing things right. Committing to yourself and your faith remembering you will always be protected and the blessing is waiting for you to let go of what isn’t good for you so it can be gifted to you. If something upsetting from the past returns handle it with a wiser stand point than before. You have everything on your side waiting for you to allow yourself to move forward in your life. You know internally what to do in those moments of peace and silence. Listen.

End of October 2018 Tarotscope

Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. You have a full natal chart, and energies can be switched. Apply it how it fits for you. This is a general, not personal reading. 

 

FIRE

Wean yourself if it’s too much at first. Let go of being upset that someone else took care of them self better than you could. The only thing to worry about now is healing yourself. The rest will follow after seeing you’re serious. It’s okay to be happier on your own. No one would blame you. But if you wanted to try again a tip is knowing this person just needs to hear that they weren’t a burden on you. You know you can’t offer them anything legitimate unless you’ve taken care of yourself first. You have to give this person time to grieve the fact that you’ve been selfish. There’s no new drama, they just are keeping their boundaries firm and keeping to themselves.

 

AIR

Have you imagined the loss of your closest person? The reason they think that they’re a burden is because their parents weren’t there like they should’ve been and they feel like there must be something wrong with them. So just express to them how they’re not too much for you. Keeping yourself balanced helps with ignoring external proposals that you don’t want. You have come too far to do some dumb selfish shit. You see how far they’ve come too, and don’t want them to have to start over either. You know they’re who you want you just want to be able to start your new slate clean and fresh. You can have what you want but you just need to be good with this one person or let them go. They were there when no one else was, and you still want them after you’ve gotten more success. Even when things aren’t great they find a way to make it good for you. Make sure to be grateful and caring in return and not abuse your power in the situation over them.

 

WATER

Before someone can be a life guard they are required to meet certain standards and be certified in emergency protocols. Also how can you save anyone if you aren’t saving yourself first? Stop being controlling hoping it’ll help you not lose things. If it’s meant to be out of your life it will be replaced with something else. The inability to accept love is emotional immaturity due to someone else saying you weren’t enough and others are better than you. You are choosing to give that person your own power when you agree to the idea of them finding someone better than you. Get to the point where if someone threatens to leave or say you deserve something less than your worth you won’t hesitate to call their bluff and walk away. It’s not that you don’t love them, it’s that you deserve to be happy and respected, end of story. You might have issues to no fault of your own, and happy or not, it’s only fair you give yourself a break to get back on your feet when you need it. Always working away because someone told you you had to doesn’t mean it’s the Law. You’re the boss of your own life. Not anybody else. If something makes you happy and feel full of purpose the money doesn’t need to be a concern it will follow with time. Quit giving time to things that aren’t good for you and start going after what it is you want to accomplish while you’re here.

 

EARTH

Anyone can be a magician or an evil sorcerer. Just depends how much dedication you apply to your studying and your practice. Also the mindset you choose to carry with your set of skills plays a part in your delivery and reception to your show. Don’t compare yourself to others you find naturally more talented at something than you either because attendance and effort reward eternally with experience. Some naturally with it will never appreciate their gift or be willing to share it with others. You do you. You are the one who needs to tame your emotional beast. No one else can do that for you. You can’t be manipulated by others if you’re “manipulating” yourself already. Anything that makes it harder on your emotions you need to deal with it. Others may be warning your partner to find someone else because of your emotional bullshit. Faith and working on your crafts and skills will bring you out of your anxiety and stress while benefiting you vs. the crap you know won’t. If unfortunately someone from your past who treated you like there was something out there better for them than you comes around don’t give it a second chance. You are over the drama and want to focus on yourself, not them. You don’t need dishonest, unbalanced, manipulative people in your life anymore. That also means you gotta stop your own mind games you play yourself too, right? Cause you ain’t a hypocrite.

 

COLLECTIVE

Say what it is you want said to you. Teal. Communication with the point to reach calmness and clarity. Lavender. Sometimes you have to wait to find how long “forever” will last with something. This waiting time is sacred and precious. It’s time you can better yourself with in preparation for the next stage. How you choose to use it is yours, but in this lifetime it’s time you will never get back. Use it with wise discretion. Dried Rose. You desire to keep the classic idea of romance, love, and beauty as your foundation to all things in your life you build upon. You also encourage and influence others to do the same in their own life. You could have the happiness you want if you focus on what you can do that’s good for you and not waste your time on things that are not. The choice is yours whether to keep things going or not. There’s no better time than now and your emotions are the only thing in your way.

Half Birthday Check Point

It’s my half birthday! What have I learned in the last 6 months?

Drop the toxic people. No, really. I don’t care who you think they are to you to them you’re just a source for them to drain off of till you’re empty and dry and then you will be discarded like the trash they valued you as.

You can’t be a hypocrite and have people take you seriously.

If you fucked me over once I’m not in the wrong to be paranoid of you for the rest of any times we interact in the future.

If I get a bad feeling, I No longer question it.

Only by having hope and faith will the law of attraction work in your favor.

I deserve whatever I think I deserve and I No longer carry the past burdens others wanted me to carry for them because those are theirs not mine.

The truth is the only way to progress.

Pain is inevitable but necessary for healing anything wounded or ailed.

People tell on themselves through projection.

I still don’t need any of this material shit the media and society tries to tell me I need.

I am blessed to have everything I have and I know that this is because when you do what’s right and you be the best you can be regardless of the tools you are given then you will always be good and have good things come to you.

It can seem like it’s always going to be a struggle but also make sure that that’s not just your perception being tainted by neglect/abuse from your support system or even yourself.

Try your best to choose peace and optimism because life here is short and not worth wasting it on things or people who aren’t serving your highest good and purpose.

Empathy : Strength :: Apathy : Purgatory

Move Forward

I forgive myself for all the bad things I’ve had to do to take care of myself in the past.
I forgive others’ bad behavior for what roles they played in my life.
I forgive myself for not having known better, now I do.
I appreciate everything I’ve been given and gone through.
I appreciate everything and everyone I have.
I aim to achieve all the goals I set out to do.
I commit to not letting myself down.
My power is mine and I will not give it away anymore.

After I met Mary Jane

I’ve broken the spell,
out of the hell.
Was my own rescuer,
after I met Mary Jane.
 
Found out the Truth.
Looked inside, there was the Light.
Closed my eyes, discovered the Sight.
 
Try to trick, that you might.
I will not bow down or give up without a fight.
 
I know you want to pull me back & keep me down,
but it’s time you recognized what’s been on my head all along,
 
The Crown.
Never was a damsel in distress,
just a glamoured Princess.
 
I’ve broken the spell,
out of the hell.
Was my own rescuer,
after I met Mary Jane.
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The Morning After the Dark Night

I don’t really know what’s going on lately.
My eye sight has become fragmented with lights, shapes, colors, ,and flashes.
Ringing in the ears.
A simultaneous feeling of impending doom and the most optimistic hope.
I contemplate the meaning of life every minute of the day.
Whether it’s a forethought or in the backdrop,
a never-ending existential crisis.
How do you aim for a direction towards your future, when you are worrying about it being gone next week?
Everywhere you go, there’s reasons to not do it.
In a world where it’s hard to find any meaning or purpose left,
where’s the will to fight if things hit the fan?
If we stand for nothing, we’ll fall for anything.
That’s what we have been doing.
Too politically correct anymore and pussy footing around offending others that we stifle our own potential.
We have placed a glass ceiling on ourselves.
Sure the media brainwashes, but we agree to accept what they try to have us believe.
It’s our own faults.
Acknowledge the problem and take some accountability for your life.
It’s your responsibility:
The ability to respond to a feeling you dislike, and doing something to change it.
Enough is enough.
I have had it with these motherfuckin issues in my motherfuckin life.
No more.
I turn my back on it.
I have better things to do
than give negativity
a ren
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