Lesson-key 1 “The Magic Path of Intuition”

Some key points from the book mixed with commentary of my own to create a complete lesson for you.

The Magic Path of Intuition

Prayer is calling God, and intuition is God calling you. When you are free of unrepented sins and resentment and you make a request per prayer and then immediately act as if it is already so. At night tell yourself in the morning you will know just what to do. Which cup will you fill daily with your energy: Hope, ideas, and love? Or fear, misery, and worries? Pains and ailments can be stress physically manifesting in your life. Ask for forgiveness and a chance to react more positively. Mind matters, mentality manifests.

Golden Rule of the Boomerang – Treat others how you want to be treated because it will come back to you. Knowledge is power and with power comes responsibility. With the long road of experience to come, learn the lesson quickly by detaching so you can spiritually evolve and move forward quicker. The more mental processing you do the slower the progress will be. Forgive everyone and everything to neutralize it all. Be the alchemist. Transform. Pray for all as they if they are yourself. Gratitude – increase. Complaint – decrease. If one door closes another always opens, trust in God to always supply you with what you need. Buy with future intentions within moderation. Give away what makes you feel bad or don’t need or use anymore. If you don’t appreciate God’s blessings as they are at face value, and instead worry you will lose it, surely you will. Trust that what’s meant for you will be yours. Do not say what you do not want. Words are not empty, null, or void. Arkashic Records are eternal. They justify or condemn you. Count your blessings, mind your manners, careful of your words. Faith bears fruit. What your mind can see and believe it can achieve. Nothing is too good to be true.

Be mindful of the contents you consume. Magic is real, all you have to do is have faith and trust. The more you pity yourself the more things will go wrong for you. By denying yourself of things your intuition wants you are hurting your flow of abundance. When you feel bad energetically change your vibration. Start moving or get new environment around to change your frequency. I live on God’s time. I go with the flow trusting it will benefit me the best. Faith is simply knowing God can do it.

11:1 – Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Your experiences are your own creations. Your intentions behind words and actions create your reality. Do everything with good motive and don’t worry about the bad people, God has your back. Little beginnings have big endings. Organization and cleanliness is good for Feng Shui, hoarding is not. Anything that happens with you in a situation you win. Don’t rush things and they will come sooner. Offer to God your glory and trust what comes is for you, whatever it may be. (You could be really surprised)

Learn to say, “I should’ve been angry/upset but I wasn’t.” The most expensive thing you can do is ignore a hunch. If you give negativity attention those demons/aliens will camp out in your brain. When things aren’t working, give it a break then let it resolve itself. Don’t resist and resent, unless you want to deal with regulations. Stop worrying about time and meeting expectations. Speak the word, follow your instincts. Dig your ditches. All things say the same, let God do it.

Trusting God needs to be a habit. Let spirit fuel you. Blessed by God the ground you walk on is holy and all you desire becomes so. Sometimes you learn things later because God’s time has a bigger purpose than what it would be on your own time. You are who you are now only because of where you were before. Like a power switch, you need to turn it on to access it’s energy. Prayer is turning on God’s grace and abundance. Desires are your necessaries for your path. Give things to God’s influence and watch it happen.

Don’t ask for your desires but ask for God’s desires for you since God knows best, and will not give you something that will hurt you or that you will regret.


Mid-November 2018 Guidance Message

This is a collective intuitive channeled message and tarot energy reading. Take what resonates for you and apply as it fits in your life. 


You’re attached to being codependent to an arrogant lying asshole who tries to control your life. You can come out of that as soon as you decide you’re done limiting yourself. Be fair. If someone can’t afford to do something don’t ask them to anyways just to appease you. If one person is doing better than the other you don’t need to hide it from the other but you don’t need to gloat about it either. Someone is trying to be there for you but you’re turning it down to offer your energy to feeling brokenhearted. Get a grip. Turn to creating something or getting spiritual to deal with your stress. You  need to be in control of your own life if you don’t want to be mind fucked. Stop mourning things that can’t be changed. You can do better. If you’re trying to have a new beginning, don’t let some sleazeball come in and try to screw that up for you. You’re the one who’s keeping you stuck. Be still. Detach. What would you want to do with your life if you had no worries? Ah, there it is. You don’t even believe that would ever be possible. You can be happy though and you know what it starts with? It starts with you. You divorcing the lies you’ve told yourself and others and marrying the truth…everything you’ve gone through, done, given, every heart break and loss, they have been the moments that formed and made you into who you are as a person today. You have a big block in relationships due to the fact you take others’ words and actions as a personal reflection of you when it’s actually a reflection of them. You need to know that not feeling enough, the feeling of being stuck, the drama, feeling hopeless, deserving of an unhappy home, it’s all motivated by the devil. You have to be fair and good to yourself and protect yourself from that kind of energy. Be committed to a new good vibe beginning, only dealing with things and people that allow you to grow and be in your zone. Your peace isn’t worth compromising for someone else’s entertainment or lack of dealing with their own problems.

First Week of November 2018 Guidance Message

This is a collective intuitive channeled message and tarot energy reading. Take what resonates for you and apply as it fits in your life. 


You go through the hard times so you can appreciate them when they’re good. You struggle so later you’re better prepared when it really matters for you or for someone else you come across. Speaking of someone else, you can learn lessons from them if you can hear them out about their experiences rather than you having to go through it yourself first. Everything happens for a reason. It’s not about where you been or where you are but where you’re going. Look back then till now, see how far you’ve come? Now imagine the changes that are before you if you act now. If things haven’t changed much, then this is your wake up call too. It’s your perception how you take things. Think about alternative ways to respond to people rather than react. This will be a good first step into seeing changes you would prefer. When you’re getting close to giving up hope, or when things finally work out for you, lean on your faith and thank the lord for what you have been blessed with. An awareness to how your primal energy is being used may be needed at this time. Refrain from excessive pleasure of the body to strengthen the spirituality in you. Use that energy to progress yourself forward. If anything is of superficial nature or a substitution for a real thing, that will drain you. You need a beneficial reciprocation in anything for it to be a good and healthy bond. If not, you are depleting and cheating yourself and your partner if you have one of good life force that can be used to create progression in your life. There are more productive things to use that energy for, like manifesting what you want in your life. “Once a ________ always a ________” statements like this aren’t true. People can change for the better. Yes, even yourself. Commitment is here if you’d just stop trying to relive the past over and over long enough to see that they’ve been there waiting for you. You’ll get news of an unfortunate event but will be compensated for it. This has been a long time coming. Even if it doesn’t feel right be sure to stay where you’re at for this time. This will bring in the new offer if you’re silent and still there. It’s not that you want to go, but you are tired of feeling mistreatment and misunderstood. You deserve more and expect more and the truth is you can have whatever you want so why should you put up with it? You’re getting over the fact that they seem unhappy with you no matter what you do and you’re over it because you can get that anywhere. Do not join in the negative mindset. It’s a sad story but your life has been hard enough without all this in it. Those times in your life are over. Now it’s about doing things right. Committing to yourself and your faith remembering you will always be protected and the blessing is waiting for you to let go of what isn’t good for you so it can be gifted to you. If something upsetting from the past returns handle it with a wiser stand point than before. You have everything on your side waiting for you to allow yourself to move forward in your life. You know internally what to do in those moments of peace and silence. Listen.

Healing 101

Telling me to let the past go
when you’re the one still show casing you intimate with other people and touching them inappropriately in front of me and in photos.
But right that’s my just my insecurity though?
Complain about how there’s not enough of “us”
but when the oppurtunity arises you aren’t showing it off and you’re not showing up.
Why say I need to do more of x, y, and z
if when i make an effort you rather do anything else than be with just me?
You care so much about how you come off and treat others yet simultaneously use what I’ve told you against me to push my buttons.
Grab my arm, do me harm, sing a song, ask if I’ll forgive you now and we can get along?
Trauma Bond.
I tell you it’s wrong and you must want a fight,
here comes the gaslight.
“I didn’t do that, you must be crazy. Be careful what you do or they might lock you up in a penitentiary’
This isn’t love, and you don’t own me.
You didn’t realize what you had and you just thought I’d never leave.
I don’t care how long it takes you to grieve, get used to it because now all I’ll ever be to you is a distant memory.
When you hurt an angel
prepared to get mangled
by the demons in your hell.
Your actions and words put you here when you convinced me it was safe to trust you and when I went to fall you didn’t catch me, I just fell.
This pattern keeps repeating,
the voice that nags at me In my head causes my ears internal bleeding.
Like a broken record it does it over
and over.
I want it to end,
I want to get better.
I want to feel like I’m no longer in that world, where only bad things will happen for me and I’m always destined to be disappointed or to always fail.
I don’t know how I’m doing this but I’m trying to get my shit together and keep moving forward without thinking about running away or dying. The more i ramble to express what i feel, the less i feel confident about being understood or heard but I’m trying.
Consideration should be a two way sensation not about what one loyal person does for the other who cannot resist temptation.
What has come of this nation.
Fuck this jibber jabber I’m going to do some saging
before i start raging.
But back to the main point for a conclusion,
your inability to love or be loved, here’s the solution,
love yourself first so you can let others love you.
Be the change,
broaden your emotional range,
don’t care who thinks you’re strange.
Hurting others won’t heal you,
and then you will have karma coming back at you.
Don’t lie for the sake of not hurting someone’s feelings,
because at the end of the day, they don’t deserve to be crying on their beds staring up at their ceilings
wondering why no matter what they do you still don’t seem satisfied to be with them.

End of August to Beginning of September 2018 Tarotscope All Elements


You can’t expect others to give you what you want if you don’t even know that yourself. You may quit something that others would view as sad or hard to let go of but you actually wanted this because you want to focus elsewhere. Someone feels better off due to nothing being shown for the time invested and feeling like all the arguing is due to someone offering things to someone outside of the union. They’re not going to do anything though because they feel like you should be the one who comes out and says what ever it is that you need to say. You can’t make offers when you’re not stable. You can’t progress in life much if you’re not stable and you know you’ve been partaking in something toxic and/or addictive that confuses your judgement and rationalization skills. Everyone else can’t always be the enemy. Look at what you are giving your power to. Find the confidence, strength, and compassion to offer the world your Best Self once again. You deserve happiness too, karma can be cleared. Now is the time to be a balanced new you.


You could be really happy but you choose to be a way that makes this other person suffer from major anxiety instead. You don’t properly show them security and affection. Someone is going to feel left out or leave if they keep feeling like you’re incapable of being committed and being emotional or have the ability to atleast self reflect. This doesn’t make for a happy home and they are tired of dealing with the bullshit. You have been known to be manipulative and sneaky, when two people tried to say something they got cut out for it, and nothing can seem to stick long in your life. Who’s fault is that? You are anxious because you think you are better off on your own but the right thing to do in this situation is not go out and spend your time and money with others but better spent on yourself and closest ones to you, putting down some bad habits, and investing more into your personal interests and relationships. When has lying ever worked for you long term? Or made you happy? Maybe you only feel this way because you’re too busy comparing things or people you shouldn’t be. You know in your heart that with a little more love and support you can see that would allow the other person to bloom fully into them self through what they have with you in the relationship. Offer them no manipulation, no anxiety, and alot of happiness, and you know it’ll turn out better than you had wished for. Be open with your feelings and take the lesson with the blessing and go forward with healing and then you can grow and be stronger.


You can have more options, stop giving so much to someone who doesn’t place you first in their life. The truth is deep down you know this investment hasn’t been fulfilling but you can turn the situation around 180 if you stop caring about what others say and think about what you do. You’re happy going “nowhere” but others may view you negatively for that but that’s because they’re insecure within themselves not being able to feel validated and secure at a contentment level border-lining “mediocre” in society’s standards. You want a renewal in your life with something or someone that you’re passionate about and a commitment you are coming out about how you feel about them. Someone maybe doesn’t want to fight about how they don’t feel you’re really there for them the same because they think it’s them just being insecure. They are doing what they can to deal with all that you’ve put them through, because you were selfish and not balanced. Now you are and you want to do what’s right. Things are alot happier when you boost their confidence. If you’re really paranoid, make sure you’re not under some influence. Also make sure you’re not being too idle because that can create bad manifestation as well.


This is what you’ve been wishing for. Just gotta work a little bit longer at it. If you need to be a little more reserved to feel better just explain why you are doing so. Recently you said how you felt about a situation and things have been adjusting around your preferences. You have what you’ve been hoping for but haven’t been able to feel the success of reaching this point yet. You can’t see it but out of nowhere you’re going to be receiving something good that’ll make you happier. You are so upset over what’s happened that you haven’t stopped to see all the inner work this other person has been doing. You’re beyond ripe for creating something huge and wonderful. You’re anxious and can’t sleep because you feel ugly, tainted, and worthless. You have to know and remember you are radiantly attractive, abundant, creative, caring, and you got this. You don’t see yet how much blessing is waiting for you in this union. You are strong it’s okay to be vulnerable and happy at the same time. You are caring more about what selfish miserable people have said and think you deserve shit and for someone who doesn’t put up with other people’s bullshit that’s some bullshit right there telling yourself that. So quit creating drama and unhappiness if you want to feel content. In the past they may not have offered much but that’s changing now, so get ready. There was something you set out to do before but things happened which made it become another burden for you to carry. Especially when you are remembering when others would tell you your life has been hard because that’s what you’ve deserved. You deserve to be happy and if a relationship isn’t doing it for you you’re not going not stay stuck. You don’t need to be controlled while they’re doing whatever they want. Take back your power and regain balance. You’ll be happy alone if they can’t get right because that’s not at all what you wanted when you got with them and there’s no second chances if they don’t try to make it up right away. It’s not worth it to be treated that way. Something may make you want to explode but it may be better to just get out for a bit. Understand others may not see you for who you really are but they do try to be fair and give you your independence but also try to care for you at the same time. It might look questionable or shady to others, but who really cares its about you and them at the end of the day.

End of August 2018 Tarotscope

Some of these may not resonate with everyone. Take what works and apply it to your situation. They’re general readings. Thank you




You want to move away quickly from the things you know aren’t benefiting you. The only way to stop feeling the way you do is leave or quickly offer your love to this person because what you’ve been doing to them is unfair and will never workout if you always are creating drama due to another person knocking you off balance. In the past you maybe lied and were manipulative, didn’t want to commit, and keeping other choices around. They are guarded now that they’re building themselves back up and in a relationship they moved on because they want commitment that’s something you wouldn’t do for them. You pouting over nothing coming from this is you being immature and playing victim. Time to move on. The more you try to do this the more anxious you’ll be. There’s nothing left there and trying to make a fool of them publicly will not do anything to help you, especially if you were hoping for some help. Making people out to be your enemy and making yourself feel victimized and defeated is blocking you in life and creating unnecessary havoc. You’d be much happier moving forward and going at it alone. You need your strength and focus on yourself getting better. It may not seem good at first but break this addiction and you will see. You can only blame your perception on whether “the world is yours” vs. “I’m stuck and can’t do anything about it.” Choose to let it go or have the universe rip it away in a way you surely won’t get it back.


You’re entirely way into your own head. Anxious over all scenarios. They are happy with you. Just because they do not always accept your offers doesn’t mean they don’t want to be with you. They feel weak if they are not withholding their own independence. You want a refreshment in your life and relationship and that’ll happen when you help keep them in a confident and balanced state by showing off your commitment to them. You’re lying to yourself if you feel like people are trying or expect you to stay trapped at home. That’s a third party or an addiction trying to tell you that. Offer it to the one who’s been there for you even when you know they didn’t need to put up with it. The quicker you shape up the better because they aren’t afraid to leave it all behind. You’re letting go of some burdens you had and focusing on being you and making the decision to live correctly which will take alot of stress off of you. You can’t see the damage this will do if you continue to do the things you know are not beneficial for you. Time for a new slate where even if it hurts you’re not putting up with the lies or manipulation. You can have it all as along as you let them be them and don’t try to manipulate or control them. Nothing good is going to come from acting how you are when you’re trying to order them around so quit being stubborn and closed off or you’re going to lose your chance with this. This is everything you’ve wanted so be strong and stop fighting with them. Go after the things you like stop worrying about others, you’re causing most of your own stress.


You did this to yourself. You’re your own worst enemy. You do these things because you’re immature not because anything happened to cause and excuse you to behave like this so be strong and really account yourself and make the changes you see and feel you need. Things would turn around for you if you’d just do the right thing. You don’t see that if you don’t properly close this cycle out then you’re going to have a bad time because you aren’t thinking ahead to when people find out about you and the unhappiness you’ve caused if you go through with this. There’s no happy relationship here. You leave people behind, hide away with your unstable emotions, and live life defensively. Anxiety every night is sure to be a success here, folks! If you’re not offering them money they don’t want to hear it. Stop investing in something that’s breaking your heart.


So rigid. So tense. This relationship is healing you though. It’s teaching you to accept your worth and to understand that everything you went through has earned you your happiness today. Enjoy it. Stay put and adjust things to how you would prefer it without asking for permission and guilt. It’s better than just quitting or dipping out without trying, right? You may just end up getting what you want and being happy without having to leave. It’s okay to want to take things slow to make sure no manipulation is going on against you. You can’t move past certain issues because you aren’t putting your energy to better uses and don’t feel a sense of security because you spend too much time thinking rather than doing. By chance you could be really happy if you offer something from what seemed like nothing. You’ll be happier when you can leave the mindset of having to care about how you seem or look to others. The drama and things people say don’t matter at the end of the day. What matters is how you handle it. Let down the burden of caring about what negative people have to say and instead focus on what opportunities in the world are being offered to you by just you being you. Take a step in a direction that’s meant for you by having the courage to do the things you’ve always wanted to do despite how others may have made you feel about it before. If you can find things to get you out of your shell and confident in yourself then alot of your codependency issues will start to fade. Do it and start watching the results come in. Offer your energy to what emotionally stabilizes you. The truth is this person loves you so stop being immature. Be healthy. Be happy. Think positive.

Day 182.5 <3

I walked to the market,
spur of the moment I wanted to go to the bar for a coffee.
“Maybe some kahlua?” that’s all I was really concerned about, actually.
As I looked upwards from my feet
a guy in a bright green jacket was walking across the street.

I thought maybe he was looking at me,
my brain scoffed in reply.

I sat down and ordered my drink while staring off into space, thinking
“This is the only place around to walk to that I feel is safe, and if not atleast I have my wrench and mace.”

About half hour to fourty five minutes go by.
I wave down my bartender and ask her for my check and start to say good bye.
“It’s already paid for, you can just go”
I’m confused and my defenses are up and I’m ready to blow.
“Really? From who?” I ask with a subtle attitude.
She points down to my left, it’s the bright green jacket dude.

I tell him thank you, and he starts to talk,
I’m on my snapchat.
He asks for my snapchat.
How am I supposed to clap back?

“Haha, funny enough, I’m on that right now”
I say without trying to sound disappointed or frown.
Not because I am not interested in this guy,
he’s pretty frickin cute,
but because I know how I am and I know what I’ve been through.
I know what I do, I know what I’ve seen,
I know the things that cannot be erased from my own memory.

I give him my username, add him right back.
Now he’s trying to ask me where do I live at.
Doesn’t he know that that’s kind of intrusive?
Hell what does it matter, you’ve been through worse.
Do you really think that you are cursed?

I tell him where I currently reside.
He asks if I need a ride?
I tell him thanks but no, I got somewhere else to go.
He asks if I want him to pick me up and then take me
I know it’s not smart based on the past, or want to waste his time, my faults he cannot yet see.

So disappointedly I leave and to the store I go,
grab my items melancholily,
“fuck, why did I have to say no?”
I walk home, quietly thinking.
Wondering how soon till this ship will be sinking.

I get home and inform him of my job, my issues, and how sometimes I struggle to stay strong.
I hold my breath and wait for him to say “No thanks, I’ll be moving along.”
To my surprise he instead invited me over.
“This is a trap, it must be” the paranoia now has me sober.
The next day he came over and picked me up.
Back to his house to meet his roommates and do my laundry.
Seems like things are moving right along.
Really fast.
“Who is she and what is she doing here?” someone asks.

I agree. What am I doing here? I barely know this guy, I feel like a burden.
He assures me it’s fine, cooks dinner for me. Things are going well, then everything goes dark suddenly.

He yells and is frustrated, one of his roommates isn’t sure why?
I try to ease him with impromptu.
“Hey! It’s good! It’s romantic, let’s light a candle it’s fine.”

After we ate, we got in the hot tub.
Watched leaves and pinecones fall from the windstorm blowing up above.
Part of me is unsure why I’m here allowing myself to do this, the other part of me has some kind of unknown knowing,
that you’re going to be okay, this is a hit not a miss.

We both know how the rest of the next few weeks went,
fast forward a couple months,
half a year infact.
We’re still growing together, despite my frequent lack of tact.

You’re always there for me,
even when I think you won’t be.
I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop,
I know I probably am worried for nothing, but I’m not sure how to stop.
Still you assure me, that I can do no wrong,
that we’ll still be together a year from now,
that we are going strong.
That time with you showing me how much you love me every day,
that you’re loyal to me,
and your love isn’t going to fade,
that these will be the things that’s going to make our relationship made.

You see a potential in me, that no one else has pointed out.
You have a belief in my recovery, when even professionals have noted their own doubts.

I’m glad we met, and now I see
divine timing is what brought me to you,
and you to me.

I wanna believe you with all that I have.
Like when you tell me you’re not going anywhere,
and that my heart isn’t something I need to hide.

I hope writing this doesn’t some how jinx us.
Deep down and when it counts I think you’re someone I can trust.

I love you so much and I hope I show you more every day how grateful I am that you came my way.

August 2018 Mid Month Tarotscope All Elements

Some of these may not resonate with everyone. Take what works and apply it to your situation. They’re general readings. Thank you 🙂



You feel stuck but are forgetting that you also are greedy and don’t want to commit but want to have your cake and eat it too. How’s that working out for you? It’d work out better for you if you’d just become grateful of what you currently have without comparing it to you r past or others now. You think it’s passion but all it really is is a way to screw yourself. You think you owe something to someone and you need to realize it’s an issue you’ve not resolved telling you that, not that it’s the truth. You will be more successful to be your own boss instead of bossing around others. You are stuck till you learn your lesson.


You can see how much better it is without drama and unnecessary bullshit in your life now. You feel confused at times about a situation or person because you’re not used to this personality but that’s because they are good on their own and they don’t need to deal with it. Try to make your offers without being immature it will work much better for you. You feel happy but might worry if it’s fake. The person who you really need to question isn’t the person who’s been right all along it’s the fraudulent party and yourself. They’re the ones who left you out in the cold and tried to manipulate your partner. Leave what didn’t work in the past and continue forward because you’ve won! You also are getting out of your own way and committing to something and dropping your guard so you can stop worrying if it’ll have all been for a waste or not investing into it.


Congrats! You had options! Feel lucky? You don’t want this couple happy and are wanting to offer money if they break up. You not quitting your bad habits is what is becoming a huge burden to yourself and those around you. All you do is lie. You pretend like you will offer someone the world and you are just unfair at the end of the day. You wish you could go back to the past and have stopped this somehow but the issue is they already saw it coming from a mile away. You can’t offer anything when you can’t decide if you even want to talk to these people or not. Is having fun more important to you than the investments you’ve put effort into? What you think was a granted wish might just have been someone trying to control you and live off of your successes. Stay alert and be happy with yourself regardless if that relationship is working out for you or not.


Some peole dindn’t want you to succeed or be around because it was a problem for them, not that you are a problem. You were feeling not so hot but you’re coming out of feeling broke and unstable and things will be turning around for you because of your hopeful efforts and faith. Forget what you -were- about and -were- working on. What makes you feel happy now? Don’t let naysayers affect you and your decisions. Don’t worry about all the “what if’s?” in your life anymore. You are beautiful and a smart person and have the ability to control your emotions and improve your life. It’s immature at this point to not do that. Whatever is bothering you and conflicting you so much, find a way to make it a positive. When you’re in charge of yourself and you have mastered your emotions you have a commanding power that cannot be argued with easily. Take charge of your own happiness. It’s taking alot out of you to trust that there’s a commitment and support for you here, but you have to also realize your sense of judgement may be affected to a degree due to a disorder or past trauma. You will be much more at peace and successful if you stop trying to always argue with people who -want- to offer you something. That’s a huge indication of your low self worth issues. Put yourself out there and find the support you need or create that space for yourself. You don’t need to be or do anything extra than be who you are authentically to be deserving of a happy life. To think anything different is a negative thought your mind’s anxiety is trying to create to distract you from progressing further past it. It’s not fair to you or your partner to keep letting those thoughts control you. It’s time for a new life, because the one you were in was not making you happy. Realize you’re not a bad person, and you are worth looking towards the future and be able to make commitments to your dreams without feeling like you’re bullshitting yourself about it. What you wish for is -right- there, if you could just stop griping about what didn’t work in your past before to realize you can use all of your blessings to get what you want and that that’s okay! It’s better to be the real you vs manipulating others always. Sometimes, it’s for the best of everyone around! You might even find out that you’re not that bad after all, despite what those in the past may have had you believing.

Ramblings August 3rd 2018

“Abused children have post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) rates equal to returning war vets.”

Throwing that out there to remind people you don’t always know what someone’s dealing with and also treat people right for crying out loud.

“Most women who’ve been through what you’ve been through would’ve shot themselves in the face by now”
Not something a domestic abuse advocate should say to someone seeking help after having the courage to ask for it. This is what’s wrong with our society.

“Well it seems like you’re problem is your just a little ball of hate at your core.”
Not something a “professional therapist” should say to the client who had the courage to seek help. This is what’s wrong with our society.

If people want to make you feel like you’re fucked up because that’s just how you are they’re not trying to understand you to help.

Sometimes you feel alone and feel hopeless but you’re not and to somebody you do matter. Even if you have to soldier it out alone in your head you got this. Find the little things that will get you through, and wake up again tomorrow to fight for another day. If you make them count, is not a waste. In 6 months time you’ll look back and realize how much you’ve grown and what you’ve been able to do for yourself and others and infact you are pretty awesome and you are worth it. Good people end up being hurt but what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger and one day you will see why everything happened the way it did.


July 2018 Mid Month Tarotscope All Elements


These are general tarot readings for each element and are not personal, therefore, some of the messages may or may not resonate. Please take what does, and leave behind what isn’t meant for you 




In the past you entertained the many options you were surrounding yourself with and acting independently. The investment you had put in wasn’t paying off for you the way you would’ve preferred but addictions played a part in this heart break. Nothing was happening so someone moved on. Where you once felt secure and confident a decision was made with better judgement and a relationship was cut off and finished. Now is the time to go within and find out slowly but surely who you are and what you are all about. What controls and sways your emotions and how to get them in check. You’ve been upset over being blocked by someone and you hope by chance they fail so you can come in to save the day. They’re entirely too happy with who they’re with right now to even see you and what you’re attempting. You don’t want them to have a successful happy new beginning without you. You want to stay stuck in a never ending tug of war with them. They’ve been patient with you long enough. They’ve turned their cheek to you too many times. They aren’t dealing with anyone’s bullshit and they’re being successful. They’re not dealing with drama, immaturity, only those who are committed to serving and helping them grow and achieve their goals. Make a decision to be happy yourself and turn a new leaf with less fighting and more recovering/rehabilitating.



You’re walking away from the independent mindset and slowing things down being happy with one choice. You can see victory with them but know you can’t approach them with immaturity or lies. You will be rewarded for starting a new chapter with them.  Success is here in this partnership but someone needs help with anxieties over disruption at work and home. You are advised to remember during times of struggle what’s been invested and why and hold onto that. You will find so much out about yourself and receive happiness and abundance after you work with this person to be strong and grow by learning how to drop the baggage you never should’ve been carrying in the first place. You think being a manipulator and having options will make you happy and secure but all it’s going to do is ruin everything you’ve been building towards. Commitment is the way. You’re not listening to your intuition which is telling you what to offer and to who. This person who seems cold and blunt is dealing with heartbreaks and disappointments from the past. They want to be happy and trust you and not worry of situations from their past repeating. They know they’re in their head. They need to feel confident and empowered and like they rule their own part of the world because of their fears. Go within and ask yourself why you feel remorseful and stuck. Why you’re impatient yet can’t offer a stable relationship yourself? You want a happy union? Stop being an aloof asshole and be fair. Realize the relationship won’t last if it’s not stable because they’ll feel your dishonesty. You don’t want to make offers to anyone, but you don’t want to move forward. you don’t want a new beginning, but you don’t want to be contained. You can’t see if you’re better off working on this or moving on. All you can see is independence. Careful what you wish for you just might get it.



You’ve been offering nothing but drama, immaturity, and instability to a home or not thinking of others in your home enough. You need to come out of this and find a way to be happy without addictions. Don’t offer anything to anyone until you’ve dealt with your burdens and got out of the things you let mentally affect you. You think there’s someone who is cold and blunt kicking you out onto the curb and this is causing you alot of anxiety. You can’t see how this partnership outside of you is working but you feel like one of them is manipulative and a liar. They’re generous and stable with one another and because of your insecurities about yourself quickly changing for the better you’re getting in the way of that cycle closing out for them. You think by one person not going yet that this puts you at an advantage and you’re committed to not going soon but you’re procrastination is keeping you stuck and better opportunities await you. Two of you will leave regardless of what you feel you invested. The whole world is out there waiting for you. Happiness is a choice and by viewing these situations as bad luck instead of an opportunity to build self confidence and utilize your own power to take control of your life and get control of your emotions back you’re keeping yourself idle and stale. Stop the conflict before you get a taste of something you really don’t want. Your past does bring karma your way eventually so be mindful of whether you’re manifesting or manipulating. If you can find the inner strength to be happy about your new beginning without this person who you had to offer money to you will soon see this wouldn’t have been a fair or beneficial situation for you anyways. You’re getting news of stability and balance being offered to you. You’re not paying what you should because you are spiteful towards someone you blame this issue on. What you are unwilling to see is what you were partaking in was bad and not good for the group setting you were in. When you can let it go your own home life and relationship will improve. If they can do it , you can too. This person is helping to force you to take the first step towards being in charge of your own life. You can’t make valid offers till you’re not having issues anymore with addictions, and not until you can be grateful for the things you already have.



Someone is trying to offer you news of something and you just don’t care. At one point you would’ve but that was a long time ago and you’ve had plenty of time to reflect back on the situation and realized just how unfair and bad it really was and you’re done with people like that for good. You can have a happy new chapter in life if you can let the anxieties go that others put on you. Don’t be heartbroken and feel crummy about yourself. Instead take all those emotions and turn them into a gold to bond the broken pieces of yourself back together. (Think Chinese repairing broken dishware) You have been through so much crazy stuff you have a ton of content to work with. Someone close to you may not feel their best but they are very happy to be with you and happy to be coming out of the rough time in their life and they want to make you an offer. In the past they never wanted to fight but they couldn’t see at the time that that didn’t mean commitment. It was just immaturity. You realize you need shake ups sometimes to turn things around to save a relationship. You know you met them by chance but it wasn’t for no reason. You need to drop your burdens and get out of your head and be happy…you made it! You see the bigger picture when it comes to your partner and someone else they cared about. In the end they’ll see what you were trying to tell them. You could offer more and be happier if you stopped worrying about your relationship so much and used that energy for your own life and the new things you want to do for yourself. You can manifest what you want where you are right now. It can be whatever you want and you’d be content and not trying to control everything if you realized they’re not always trying to attack you. Sometimes they just don’t feel the greatest and just don’t want to do things. Not a reflection of you and the partnership or how they feel about you. Instead focus on what you like and what makes you happy, don’t be unfair about it but it’s okay to be a little reserved if that is what will boost your mood and ground yourself. The truth is you’ve got a huge disadvantage when you’re being guarded with who you are. Quickly you will hear about how people aren’t contacting you to say they want to offer you anything, but to praise you on who you are and how it’s helped them in some kind of way just by being you.