The new “you” you would like to be more gentle with others.
It’s not boring to take care of yourself and those closest to you. Your base beliefs may need evaluated.
Need to fulfill your own wishes and fix insecurities. need to make confidence a part of self. feeling bad about not having sex together, a friendship with someone needs to end. Let go of concerns about what others think. Stop holding onto old ways of living, being, behaving from others, they are holding you back. do not worry about if they are embarassed or angry, they are irrelevant. let it go. let them go.
Stop relying on others. Be strong and be selfless to your higher self (if you can’t claim being “selfish”)
You know how to be savvy and patient to get what you want, using all resources to your benefit in acquiring what you want.
Stop caring about what others think about how you go about your life and the way you get things you need and want. You are a person of good judgement and moral character, you do what you need to do to take care of yourself and those closest to you.
Don’t harm yourself to please others. You don’t have to be obedient to people who you know aren’t good to you or doing what they need to do in return for your efforts.
Trying to get out of negative cycles and transition into a different state to escape it.
The worst that can happen if found out doesn’t even matter, because those people are not going to get you where you need to be, YOU ARE.