RAVE ON

you said you hated my face

you said my food looked like shit,

but i could already tell from your personality if those things were true your mouth would’ve already quit.

days came to pass,

your moods always different.

some pleasant and sweet,

some short with sass,

never the less you were heaven – sent.

we related with alot, more than I could with most.

you wondered why I was so hard on you during work,

and afterwards more gentle and maternal, letting some things coast.

in you I saw a younger me,

back a bit ago when I started being a moody teen.

who was different and all my life verified that,

I usually felt alone, and like no one really had my back.

We shared contact info and I let you know

anytime your mom can’t be around and you don’t wanna be alone, Im a call or text away and with me is always somewhere you can call a second home.

need food? let’s eat

something dirty? come do some laundry.

want a ride home instead of a walk?

you never really accepted my offers, but you started to smile more around me, and hugs were now offered!

when you heard about my ex, you told me you’ll kill him,

when I quit my job and had to leave, there already was some grief.

I’m glad we kept in touch and grew our friendship more.

even after you found out about my past and job you still never called me a whore.

you were always there to talk with me, about the philosophical sides to this reality.

and how we are labeled as strange and abnormal, when we’re the ones aware of what’s surrounding “the Formal”

you’re not the first of one of my close friends to die, but it still hits me hard every time.

seems like some fucked up kind of joke, that the ones who can see the real me always disappear and go ghost.

but it is what it is,

I know you’re moving on and to you i toast,

Rayvon, you’re an incredible being, and your warm greeting and hug is one of the things I’m looking forward to the most.

till then I’ll send you good vibes when I see your signs, and make sure you’re there waiting for me when I catch up with you on the flipside!

xoxo

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Vivienne Westwood Fall/Winter 2019/2020 Show Message

Make your own things and stopping buying stuff you don’t need.

Spoon on left ear: there is no such thing as fatality death. Just “death”.

Nasa lying about what climate change is, they are telling you it’s public knowledge the ozone going down under Paris and will soon not be able to survive in.

All the info is in the cards(occult knowledge/tarot/metaphorically) which are laid out on the table.Everyone worried about the wrong things. Things are going to come up, and go down. Physically and metaphysically.

Soon the mark of the beast well be given to the new born children, who aren’t evolving organically but instead controlled by the AI in their skin.

Head wraps and full suits needed for the palest.

The more melanin the more you’ll shine.

You think you can handle the new world, Fool?

The arctic peace treaty is being compromised by Russia which will be the catalyst for the “invasion” and why we need “space force” which activates and starts “the game” laying the “first cards down”

Power can be achieved by invoking human emotions and then keeping plans in secret.

The world’s separated by those who don’t think and impulsively act or do as their told, and those who think and are intelligent and always willing to learn more and brainstorm to solve problems, like what to do to have a peaceful world. They talk about their plans on how to take over the world every month at their little book club meetings.

If you’re rich enough, gold leafed masks may be used to reflect or alchemize uvb rays for paler races.

Buy lies. We’re taught when we are young, be who you are, which isn’t what you are already as is, but what is seemingly unachievable unless a magical fairy granted your wish or you pay the right price. All the characters in stories are energies to be matched with yourself as a guide, who will you be?

Will you eat whatever is convenient, knowing it will turn you into a jackass of corporate consumption?

The elect are not honest with us Like they claim in stories and movies they allow though, they mix the truth with fiction to confuse and mislead the masses.

Art is the truth which is why it can’t be regulated.

If you continue to ignore what history has taught, and claim only in the moment counts, there is no future for you to obtain, this is the lie.

The world cares more about political correctness, feelings, and opinions rather than the truth and the facts and the logic. This is why they are blind to the truth.

It’s a lie that spending everything and ignorantly paying for something without questioning will make you rich. Obviously not true. You have to use discernment and discipline.

You’re buying crap you don’t need that’s worth shit to fund assholes who contribute nothing back to society and their communities.

Democracy is a lie pushing everyone to a one world order which only accelerates the elects’ further destruction of the current state of our world as we know it.

Things will happen to shake things up and make the playing field more fair and even.

Just because someone doesn’t admit they’re evil doesn’t make it so. It gets their dicks hard to Fuck you over like that and you just take it.

Stop lying to children about climate change being their responsibility. Tell the fucking truth.

We are meant to speak with our words otherwise we’re devolving back to lower animals.

The elect try to portray themselves as innocent behind the aprons of ignorance. Social media and the army of drones in the echo chamber silence any healthy and progressive conversation or discussion on what to do to solve problems in the world.

The new lies for consumption is “it’s okay to spend even more now because it will save the ‘planet’ so it’s good, You’re allowed.”

They want you to think going into this new contract will be profitable for you.

What was once classically loved and upheld will soon be kissed goodbye to something more out of the box and experimental.

We come in and out of portals time and time again here and there. We choose partners we will share this go around with, don’t make the same agreements as before, follow the leads of example, the ones with roles that make you feel noble when you do as them. Then you can make an agreement with yourself to do better again always, just like before.

Say what you mean to say boldly without embarrassment, especially when you’re driven to by a stronger force than you, it’s needed.

Shanann Watts Tarot Reading

Done with all respect for her, the children, and her friends and family.

2-10-2019

This is what intuitively came to me through channeled messages and use of divination through prayer entry with God. I don’t know the accuracy of the messages, but I feel inclined to share.

“i want everyone to know i wasn’t happy but i did what i could. i was trying.
crying. why would you do this to me or our kids
really we hope they all learn a lesson about what family really means and what people try to make it seem. what marriage really is and what it just seemed like. i never thought he would do something like this. things have been bad but never this bad. the man who saved me and protected us turning on us is not what i imagined us doing together with our life and future.
why was she in our house. why couldnt you just keep her out. why couldnt you just leave if you were not happy. why couldnt you just be honest with me once. i knew something was wrong and i waitied too late. tell nicole that she will always be my best friend and my hero. i know she did her best and im proud of her for standing up to chris for us. im glad to all who knew i was not that wife and not that mother. look up more symbolism of the names and number and how he hurt us and buried us. these are clues to a bigger organization that conspired this and started it all. also thrive has no benefits and if i had been more concerned about working honestly instead of just making sales then maybe i would’ve not missed the signs that were warning me to stop and evaluate things in my relationship with him. I was just trying to get money incase he dipped on us cause I just knew something was wrong.

Don’t let anyone, even the person you love, stifle or smother your wants and needs of living a happily fulfilled life. If something tells you something is really wrong, do not ignore it. it was the death of me and my children. If someone is being distant with you and rejecting you, especially in bed, they are hiding something from you and it can be dentrimental. Make sure also your self worth is not lacking. It prevents you from falling for the wrong people and prevents them from being able to pull one over on you. Also if you are insecure or feel you don’t deserve something you will put off that energy and attract what you don’t want to you. Practice being unaffected by the negative energy around you. Your soul approves of you at all times, even if your human body doesn’t. Things can’t run smoothly or easier if you are doing them seperate of someone else in a partnership. Two heads are better than one. Road in a relationship means people meet half way. Not one always going to the other. Don’t let yourself get so down that others can easily take advantage of you. Some things are not meant to be held onto. Don’t trust people who don’t open up to you. ” – from who I believe to be Shanann herself.

Channeled Information:

Shanann was too confident and happy to lower herself to what Chris wanted from her. He was too immature to let her go and cheated with someone who was willing to do the things Shanann would not. Chris was anxious all the time and felt less of a man because she would not submit to him and his desires. He wanted her to abort or miscarry and get a divorce, but knew that she wouldn’t do it at the point he made the decision in his mind and he was worried about child support and alimony. Chris only acted as if Nickole had what he wanted in a relationship, the truth was he never wanted one and the same thing or something similiar would’ve happened to her when he was bored of her too. He has no remorse and no will to change his ways. It turns out his plan wasn’t as good as he thought. He let her go to North Carolina under the presumption that they would work it out in the end, but he was already celebrating and starting his new life without her, even spending money on someone else and taking money away from her and the children. He acted fine and content with his life but no one could have known how much of a manipulator he was. He seemed happy in his life and he did things when Shanann would get all up in her feelings and thought his storming out or anger would be justified because of her behavior. Then he would go cheat and she would not be able to say anything because they fought so that’s why he must have left the house. When Chris said he wanted a divorce, she said she would be moving and if he didn’t give her everything she wanted he couldn’t talk to them or see them. He thought he was in the right to take power into his own hands with the execution of the ending. She didn’t want to fight, she just wanted to go to sleep. She didn’t really want to divorce, she wanted things to slow down so they could figure it out. He didn’t want the drama, he wanted to just make himself happy. The truth was it was everything he wanted but he couldn’t get a grip on his feelings with Shanann. He felt he was not good enough of a man for her and his kids, a loser, a deviant controlling tyrant. He wanted to be fair, but lust got in the way and then when Nickole spoke of the success they would have once they were together enamored him. Being emotionally immature was his downfall, as Nickole was an even bigger manipulator than he was. He was burdened between having to hurt the family or lose Nickole. He didn’t want to make the decision so soon. Nickole got in his head about how Shanann is just trying to keep him stuck in life and will never truly fulfill him or give him what he wants long term. She made him choose between a happy new beginning with her or a long miserable marriage without her on the side. He was anxious over the issue. He was not happy with how insecure Nickole was acting by putting him in this position, but he really liked the things she did for him in bed and was not willing to give it up. He wished that he said it sooner that he lost feelings for Shanann before it got to this point but now that the threat was on the table he couldn’t be strong enough to face Shanann and deal with the financial sacrifices it would take to make it all work out the right way. He never saw himself able to get out of the debt they already were in, so it didn’t matter anyways to him at that point.

You can’t give someone else the power over how you see yourself, feel yourself, or your prosperity, peace, and abundance. If you are not in control of your emotions and things don’t seem fair, ask yourself is this too much of a burden on you? Are your feelings and efforts being reciprocated? Are you happy and feel like you’re winning in life, or do you feel like it’s a failure and a drain? Ask God to deliver you from this energy and to make things how they ought to be. Be happy on your own, don’t be codependent on someone else and expect them to be your rock and savior. You will be disappointed. Do what makes you happy, if that doesn’t make someone else happy tell them they need to come correct or you need to move on. If you pull back and see that you feel better off without them, then you know that it’s not right for you. If it hurts you more than it makes you happy, it’s not right for you. If you’re committed to yourself you will do the things it takes to make yourself be in a positive mindset and place and you will not let someone stand inbetween you and your life’s works. Make the decision that times where someone rude tells you what to do is over. You don’t need anything from them, cause everything you need you can get yourself. Put yourself first, do not be a doormat. Not for a family member, a friend, a partner, or a company.

Lesson-key 1 “The Magic Path of Intuition”

Some key points from the book mixed with commentary of my own to create a complete lesson for you.

The Magic Path of Intuition

Prayer is calling God, and intuition is God calling you. When you are free of unrepented sins and resentment and you make a request per prayer and then immediately act as if it is already so. At night tell yourself in the morning you will know just what to do. Which cup will you fill daily with your energy: Hope, ideas, and love? Or fear, misery, and worries? Pains and ailments can be stress physically manifesting in your life. Ask for forgiveness and a chance to react more positively. Mind matters, mentality manifests.

Golden Rule of the Boomerang – Treat others how you want to be treated because it will come back to you. Knowledge is power and with power comes responsibility. With the long road of experience to come, learn the lesson quickly by detaching so you can spiritually evolve and move forward quicker. The more mental processing you do the slower the progress will be. Forgive everyone and everything to neutralize it all. Be the alchemist. Transform. Pray for all as they if they are yourself. Gratitude – increase. Complaint – decrease. If one door closes another always opens, trust in God to always supply you with what you need. Buy with future intentions within moderation. Give away what makes you feel bad or don’t need or use anymore. If you don’t appreciate God’s blessings as they are at face value, and instead worry you will lose it, surely you will. Trust that what’s meant for you will be yours. Do not say what you do not want. Words are not empty, null, or void. Arkashic Records are eternal. They justify or condemn you. Count your blessings, mind your manners, careful of your words. Faith bears fruit. What your mind can see and believe it can achieve. Nothing is too good to be true.

Be mindful of the contents you consume. Magic is real, all you have to do is have faith and trust. The more you pity yourself the more things will go wrong for you. By denying yourself of things your intuition wants you are hurting your flow of abundance. When you feel bad energetically change your vibration. Start moving or get new environment around to change your frequency. I live on God’s time. I go with the flow trusting it will benefit me the best. Faith is simply knowing God can do it.

11:1 – Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Your experiences are your own creations. Your intentions behind words and actions create your reality. Do everything with good motive and don’t worry about the bad people, God has your back. Little beginnings have big endings. Organization and cleanliness is good for Feng Shui, hoarding is not. Anything that happens with you in a situation you win. Don’t rush things and they will come sooner. Offer to God your glory and trust what comes is for you, whatever it may be. (You could be really surprised)

Learn to say, “I should’ve been angry/upset but I wasn’t.” The most expensive thing you can do is ignore a hunch. If you give negativity attention those demons/aliens will camp out in your brain. When things aren’t working, give it a break then let it resolve itself. Don’t resist and resent, unless you want to deal with regulations. Stop worrying about time and meeting expectations. Speak the word, follow your instincts. Dig your ditches. All things say the same, let God do it.

Trusting God needs to be a habit. Let spirit fuel you. Blessed by God the ground you walk on is holy and all you desire becomes so. Sometimes you learn things later because God’s time has a bigger purpose than what it would be on your own time. You are who you are now only because of where you were before. Like a power switch, you need to turn it on to access it’s energy. Prayer is turning on God’s grace and abundance. Desires are your necessaries for your path. Give things to God’s influence and watch it happen.

Don’t ask for your desires but ask for God’s desires for you since God knows best, and will not give you something that will hurt you or that you will regret.

Frosty Moon Weekend Intuitive Guidance Message 11-22-2018

This is a message for the collective.

Someone wants to move forward but waiting on immaturity and pettiness to pass. The negative mindset that things won’t work out is your choice. Nothing bad is going to happen unless you create it. Get out of your own way to get the happiness you deserve, because everything you want is right infront of you. Letting the opinion of others deter you from your heart’s desires is no one’s fault but your own. The same shit happens because you keep doing the same thing and expecting something different. Move away from anything that’s killing or holding your soul back from getting what you want. Your happiness is on the otherside of your fear. Think about all the things  you wanted to do in the past and couldn’t. If you looked around you’d see the oppurtunities available to you. It’s up to you. Someone is unwilling to offer you more if you keep threatening to leave or coming off dissatisfied. Just because things aren’t going at your pace doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be in control of your emotions. If you’re not being fair or mature about certain things why would you expect someone to give more to you? You may feel it’s not fair that they’re holding back on you but if you were confident in yourself you wouldn’t let that bother you and it wouldn’t matter. Your issues from the past are over now and you deserve  happiness. Be honest with yourself and end anything that doesn’t feel right. Things might not go as you’d originally hoped with money but it will pick up. It’s okay to accept feeling lighter and happier. Stop viewing things as baggage and look at things as a lesson. Have you not yet been delivered from your suffering? Perhaps not completely but keep investing in yourself and your hobbies and it will improve. You don’t see how your armor and protection have been slowing you down and blocking yourself. You’re not able to clearly see things or respond accordingly. Whatever negative bond is attached to you, you need to look within, forgive yourself, and stop doing the sabotaging to your own happiness. The devil wants you to feel stuck. Stop offering your valuable resources to things or people that make you feel imbalanced. If you want to be happy stop paying attention to what the toxic people in your past said and did. Instead of victimizing yourself seize the opportunity being offered. Let go of your fears and be proactive with all that energy. Don’t give up your power over your life and passions just to feel a little bit of contentment with money at the risk of you feeling sad in your soul. Doing the right thing isn’t always easy or for the mentally weak. Take a chance, tell the truth about how you’re going for something different and things will come to you that you have given up on or about to give up on. You’ll be happy you had stood your ground. God doesn’t give up on you when you don’t give up on God.  Someone wants to be happy and loyal to you but doesn’t want to fight. If you want a happy home stop fighting and just be happy and celebrate that you ended up getting what you wanted up till this point. From here on out It’s nothing but up, if you use your power of changing your perception when it starts getting negative. 

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FIGHT FREEZE FLEE
look what you’ve done to me
constantly believing
that this is my reality

ain’t no game
i’m in a lot of pain
i cant shut up my brain
and i think i’ve already went insane

HEY HEY YOU
WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO
WHEN YOU FALL FOR ME AND THINK YOU CAN HANDLE IT
WHEN IM ALREADY TELLING YOU

this isn’t what you want
Im not who you think
i am
some broken woman
jaded and confused
lost in this 3d world
wondering what’s left to lose

HEY HEY YOU
WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?
there’s nothing left to see
what do you want from me?
there’s nothing here for you
but yes i love you too

Mid-November 2018 Guidance Message

This is a collective intuitive channeled message and tarot energy reading. Take what resonates for you and apply as it fits in your life. 

 

You’re attached to being codependent to an arrogant lying asshole who tries to control your life. You can come out of that as soon as you decide you’re done limiting yourself. Be fair. If someone can’t afford to do something don’t ask them to anyways just to appease you. If one person is doing better than the other you don’t need to hide it from the other but you don’t need to gloat about it either. Someone is trying to be there for you but you’re turning it down to offer your energy to feeling brokenhearted. Get a grip. Turn to creating something or getting spiritual to deal with your stress. You  need to be in control of your own life if you don’t want to be mind fucked. Stop mourning things that can’t be changed. You can do better. If you’re trying to have a new beginning, don’t let some sleazeball come in and try to screw that up for you. You’re the one who’s keeping you stuck. Be still. Detach. What would you want to do with your life if you had no worries? Ah, there it is. You don’t even believe that would ever be possible. You can be happy though and you know what it starts with? It starts with you. You divorcing the lies you’ve told yourself and others and marrying the truth…everything you’ve gone through, done, given, every heart break and loss, they have been the moments that formed and made you into who you are as a person today. You have a big block in relationships due to the fact you take others’ words and actions as a personal reflection of you when it’s actually a reflection of them. You need to know that not feeling enough, the feeling of being stuck, the drama, feeling hopeless, deserving of an unhappy home, it’s all motivated by the devil. You have to be fair and good to yourself and protect yourself from that kind of energy. Be committed to a new good vibe beginning, only dealing with things and people that allow you to grow and be in your zone. Your peace isn’t worth compromising for someone else’s entertainment or lack of dealing with their own problems.

First Week of November 2018 Guidance Message

This is a collective intuitive channeled message and tarot energy reading. Take what resonates for you and apply as it fits in your life. 

 

You go through the hard times so you can appreciate them when they’re good. You struggle so later you’re better prepared when it really matters for you or for someone else you come across. Speaking of someone else, you can learn lessons from them if you can hear them out about their experiences rather than you having to go through it yourself first. Everything happens for a reason. It’s not about where you been or where you are but where you’re going. Look back then till now, see how far you’ve come? Now imagine the changes that are before you if you act now. If things haven’t changed much, then this is your wake up call too. It’s your perception how you take things. Think about alternative ways to respond to people rather than react. This will be a good first step into seeing changes you would prefer. When you’re getting close to giving up hope, or when things finally work out for you, lean on your faith and thank the lord for what you have been blessed with. An awareness to how your primal energy is being used may be needed at this time. Refrain from excessive pleasure of the body to strengthen the spirituality in you. Use that energy to progress yourself forward. If anything is of superficial nature or a substitution for a real thing, that will drain you. You need a beneficial reciprocation in anything for it to be a good and healthy bond. If not, you are depleting and cheating yourself and your partner if you have one of good life force that can be used to create progression in your life. There are more productive things to use that energy for, like manifesting what you want in your life. “Once a ________ always a ________” statements like this aren’t true. People can change for the better. Yes, even yourself. Commitment is here if you’d just stop trying to relive the past over and over long enough to see that they’ve been there waiting for you. You’ll get news of an unfortunate event but will be compensated for it. This has been a long time coming. Even if it doesn’t feel right be sure to stay where you’re at for this time. This will bring in the new offer if you’re silent and still there. It’s not that you want to go, but you are tired of feeling mistreatment and misunderstood. You deserve more and expect more and the truth is you can have whatever you want so why should you put up with it? You’re getting over the fact that they seem unhappy with you no matter what you do and you’re over it because you can get that anywhere. Do not join in the negative mindset. It’s a sad story but your life has been hard enough without all this in it. Those times in your life are over. Now it’s about doing things right. Committing to yourself and your faith remembering you will always be protected and the blessing is waiting for you to let go of what isn’t good for you so it can be gifted to you. If something upsetting from the past returns handle it with a wiser stand point than before. You have everything on your side waiting for you to allow yourself to move forward in your life. You know internally what to do in those moments of peace and silence. Listen.

Healing 101

Telling me to let the past go
when you’re the one still show casing you intimate with other people and touching them inappropriately in front of me and in photos.
But right that’s my just my insecurity though?
Complain about how there’s not enough of “us”
but when the oppurtunity arises you aren’t showing it off and you’re not showing up.
Why say I need to do more of x, y, and z
if when i make an effort you rather do anything else than be with just me?
You care so much about how you come off and treat others yet simultaneously use what I’ve told you against me to push my buttons.
Grab my arm, do me harm, sing a song, ask if I’ll forgive you now and we can get along?
Trauma Bond.
I tell you it’s wrong and you must want a fight,
here comes the gaslight.
“I didn’t do that, you must be crazy. Be careful what you do or they might lock you up in a penitentiary’
This isn’t love, and you don’t own me.
You didn’t realize what you had and you just thought I’d never leave.
I don’t care how long it takes you to grieve, get used to it because now all I’ll ever be to you is a distant memory.
When you hurt an angel
prepared to get mangled
by the demons in your hell.
Your actions and words put you here when you convinced me it was safe to trust you and when I went to fall you didn’t catch me, I just fell.
This pattern keeps repeating,
the voice that nags at me In my head causes my ears internal bleeding.
Like a broken record it does it over
and over.
I want it to end,
I want to get better.
I want to feel like I’m no longer in that world, where only bad things will happen for me and I’m always destined to be disappointed or to always fail.
I don’t know how I’m doing this but I’m trying to get my shit together and keep moving forward without thinking about running away or dying. The more i ramble to express what i feel, the less i feel confident about being understood or heard but I’m trying.
Consideration should be a two way sensation not about what one loyal person does for the other who cannot resist temptation.
What has come of this nation.
Fuck this jibber jabber I’m going to do some saging
before i start raging.
But back to the main point for a conclusion,
your inability to love or be loved, here’s the solution,
love yourself first so you can let others love you.
Be the change,
broaden your emotional range,
don’t care who thinks you’re strange.
Hurting others won’t heal you,
and then you will have karma coming back at you.
Don’t lie for the sake of not hurting someone’s feelings,
because at the end of the day, they don’t deserve to be crying on their beds staring up at their ceilings
wondering why no matter what they do you still don’t seem satisfied to be with them.
/mood